Hi there,

I'd like to first congratulate you on your desire to give up coke. It's the very first step in taking control of your life and recovery. In the beginning you may be in a total state of denial as to the extent of your problem with cocaine. Right now it sounds as if you're seeing it as a problem, but not an additction. Cocaine is agressively addictive and you may be in deeper than you realize, seeing as you've been using for years. There are a ton of online "tests" you can take to determine your "status". Google "am I addicted"...take a few tests.

As with any substance abuse addiction, it takes continual working at your "quit". First, make an appointment with your doctor and lay out all the cards on the table. Be brutally honest about your cocaine use. He not only will check you out physically, but be able to direct you to help within your area.

Join NA (narcotics anonymous) or CA (Cocaine Anonymous).....these are 12 step programs designed much like AA, but more specialized to your problem. The statistics show that without the support of programs like these, the chances of quitting cocaine on your own is slim to none. These groups are available worldwide, are free, and also online (once again google). You may find yourself shunning them saying "that's not for me" but they're helped millions "get clean". If you only go for the support alone, it will help.

You may not have hit what they call "rock bottom" yet...the lowest point any type of addiction must reach before the person has had enough and ready to give quitting a committed attempt....but your post tells me you're well on your way there. Don't under-estimate the power cocaine has, it's much stronger than you realize. It claims all types of people, not just those on the street, but people such as yourself...cocaine holds no prejudice.

At very least check these programs out....arm yourself with at least the knowledge that help is available in many forms and programs, so that when the time comes that you're ready to deal with it, you'll know where to go.

I wish you all the best in your journey....you CAN do this.

You've made the first step and that is to want to quit. Next step is to set down and really think about the reason why. Setteling down is a good enough reason for me.
Planning a future drug free is a wonderful goal. It will not be easy since you have been doing it for such a long time. The more you indulge, the harder it is to stop. You can try this on your own. My own son did it on his own so I know it can be done. But there are some that just can't make it and have to except the fact of a meth clinic. If it comes to that, just be careful. But, if you set your mind on your future goals and keep them in priority, I think you will do just fine.
Only thing is, your going to have to give up the peers that you were hanging around with that do cocaine. That is one of the biggest things of importance. It's like picking up that first drink. Don't do it! Think of your girl and the future you want to have and let that lead you to recovery.
If it comes to facility rehab, then so be it. You will thank yourself for the rest of you life. And write down how much money each week you have saved (keep a log) and that will also give you some motivation.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish you the very best of luck. You can do it and you will do it.

If there is anyway I can help, feel free to PM me anytime. I am a moderator of this forum now and welcome any cry for help I can get my hands on.

Carrie

Congrats to you for making this decision. Your girl must be someone very special.
Like MsCarrie said, you won't be able to chum with your peers that you have done coke with. You shouldn't go to places that you have done coke in, and don't do things that you may associate using with. All of these things are going to be triggers and it will be very difficult to avoid the urge to use. I'm sure you know one line is never enough, so don't put yourself in a position to have to say NO, because chances are you won't be able to.
You can do this without other drugs like Meth. Set your eye on your goal and go for it. It won't be easy, but there are a lot of people out there who have beat this very addictive habit. You can too.

Used some cocaine on monday, had a drug test on friday, i drank lots of fluids and flushed, and did so before my urine screen. its sunday morning, i took a home drug test (cause of worry), i had a darker piss this time also, and tested negative for all drugs including the cocaine... Will the test I took friday be ok also? nurse

You'll need will power. You sound determined. I guess one option could be to go on anti depressents. Another option, rehab. It really depends on you. Go and talk with a gp about this and see what sort of path you both decide you should take. It's not easy. nothing ever is but you have your determination that will get you through this. good luck my friend

Hey well done in realizing you need to stop it....It's a terrible drug.....Try ringing the national drug helpline they are very helpful and will advise you n what to do next good luck Jenny

it's so hard to admit that you need to give up. so well done for getting to that stage. i'm in a similar position. today i flushed £150 worth of high quality cocaine down the loo. it is something i have always promised myself i'd do one day - and on that day i would give up. it's taken me 15 years to get to that point...... enough is enough. it's expensive, it ruins your mental health, it's empty and shallow but makes us believe we are having a better time than we would without it. i have been in denial about the fact that i was extremely dependent on it, but when i looked at the evidence it was very obvious and not pretty. it was not easy to do that today, i was in floods of tears. but i have big responsibilities in my life now and i need to respect them. sounds like you've come to the same conclusion.... all the luck in the world to you. hard hard hard!!!! xxx