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Q: What the Voice Is Saying Now.
asked by: woops on November 19th, 2007
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Well, it's been weeks and the voice in my mind is completely sounding like a broken record, it goes on and on about how all of the fleshly beings on this planet are not in control of themselves, how we do not choose what kind've people we are, how we are all given our state of beings, it says that a lion cannot be blamed for having sharp teeth, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again it talks about this. It wants me to understand that people that do evil aren't to blame, it really can't talk about the good ones. Unceasingly filling my head with this pointless idea. Seriously, trying to get me to understand evil people, how rediculous, the only thing to understand about them is that they suck and should be stayed away from, if that's even possible. Hypocrite voices, who would've thunk it. Imagine, a bunch of seriously poopy people asking you to understand that they can't help doing awful things to you over and over. Imagine, the virus isn't to blame for killing animals, the animals aren't to blame for killing people, the people aren't to blame for killing animals and eachother, the earth isn't to blame for killing people. Well, fantastic voice. If the lion isn't to blame for killing a child, is it still not an ugly state of being, it should have never been and must be stopped, and nobody will be to blame for that.
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woops
replied on November 19th, 2007
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And right after writing this, it continued on about the crappy ways of the world, I keep telling it that it's pointless to think about, why try and simply understand why there is k illing over and over again when it doesn't ever stop. Man, just shutup and leave me be! what?!
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Philo
replied on November 19th, 2007
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Have you tried talking to it? Does it respond?

I myself am severe trouble with evil tonight, it's in my body, it's cold and devillish and it won't leave. I feel sick. I don't really believe that evil and good exist, so it's kind of ridiculous.
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Georgia59
replied on November 20th, 2007
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Hey philo- sorry to hear you are struggling. Did is pass? Are you feeling better?

It might help if you (I think I remember you saying you were seeing a doc and on meds?) write down things like this and keep a record of different experiences that you have. Same for you, woops. Writing things down gives you more power while facing doctors.
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Philo
replied on November 20th, 2007
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It comes once or several times per day, and knocks me down. The doc gave me once some pills for the shivers (apart from the risperdal) and they worked a little bit, though they made my mouth dry like crazy. Lately I haven't been using them because it hasn't been that bad, and now my prescription for them ran out.
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Georgia59
replied on November 21st, 2007
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Ooh that's too bad.
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woops
replied on November 24th, 2007
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It responds, yes. Sometimes it speaks for me, and thinks for me, sort've putting words into my mouth. When I ask it who it is, it replys "satan". No joke.

Here, ill ask it when it will go away. It said "never". It later added that I would be the one going away in time.

Perhaps I should write things down, but dear god, If I were to tell my doctor that there is a voice living in my head who tells me it is the evil spirit satan, what would happen?

I actually enjoy asking it questions, well, meaningless questions, like what's your favorite color? It said "black".

Which do you like best? The sun or the moon? It said the "sun", after apparently not being able to decide, but after some deliberation it decided that it likes the sun the best because it burns people.

Would anybody like to ask satan a question?
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Georgia59
replied on November 25th, 2007
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woops wrote:


Perhaps I should write things down, but dear god, If I were to tell my doctor that there is a voice living in my head who tells me it is the evil spirit satan, what would happen?




What would happen is the doctor would talk to you about it and figure out why there is a voice in your head and help you make it go away.
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Philo
replied on November 25th, 2007
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When I tell my doctor that the devil is moving around the muscles in my face he doesn't say anything.
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woops
replied on November 25th, 2007
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It's as if they know what is wrong with us and we're constantly being lied to about it, I suppose I could tell him about it if he already knew what it was and I were to not act on it and just sit here and suffer, but I suppose I don't have to do anything about it, only be patient.

(These two little horrible children are in the room with me killing people with chainsaws on their computer games, it's making me ill, they are so stupid, I know that they are being lied to, like taking candy from a baby.)

The only way that this will stop is the end of my body, and man, I hope that is just the end of me completely, just no more, I don't want to be a ghost or spirit, ya know how in the bible it says that god can destroy the spirit so don't be afraid of the ones that kill the body, I hope he destroys me after doing this stupid crap, seeing as how he can't do anything right.
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Philo
replied on November 25th, 2007
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I know, the afterlife scares the hell out of me, that this stuff will continue and I will be a schizophrenic spirit without even a body to hang on to. And I don't really want to go to heaven, the idea seems so flaky!
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woops
replied on November 25th, 2007
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And it persists today, no ones to blame, it is our nature, our creation, that we couldnt stop it if we wanted to. I keep telling it that it is only saying stupid things about crappy things that are only wrong. It keeps trying to explain earthquakes in principle, it says that the tectonic plates shift and then the ground shakes and kills a bunch of people and destroys a bunch of buildings, and then it says that the ground can't help it, its the earth's nature. You see what I mean, what's the use of explaining an earthquake in this manner?

Would you agree that frankenstein isn't to blame, but must be stopped, does this not make sense, if something sucks, don't accept it, and struggle to stop it right, if you can, do everything in your power anywho.

I wish that it would stop defending people and their poop, merely talking endlessly about crappy horrible things.
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Philo
replied on November 25th, 2007
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I don't totally agree with the voice. I do think many people that do evil things don't know it, and those who do find it hard to change their behaviour, but change IS possible, with hard work and dedication.
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Sesshomaru-Sama
replied on November 26th, 2007
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i find that theres always two consenting opnions in my head, not so much a voice. when i have a thought it is immediatelty negated by the other "side".this basically leaves me in a mental stupor not knowing what to think. has anyone else experienced this?
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Duzz
replied on November 26th, 2007
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Sess, I know what you mean. That happens to me at times as well, and I just believe it to be myself questioninig everything. If I say the sky is blue, I can think 'What if it really isn't blue', and then I willr ealize it doens't matter if it's blue or not, as it looks blue to me, and that's all that matters.

Also, woops, maybe it's trying to prove a point?
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Philo
replied on November 26th, 2007
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I used to get the two contending opinions symptom too. I was walking around all day confused. My girlfriend at the time was mad at me that I'm so undecided.
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woops
replied on November 27th, 2007
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It's trying to prove a point? All of the time?
Pointless points? I suppose it really likes points, because it won't shutup, ever.
Here is my point, whether people are to blame or not, the suffering will not cease. And of course it won't listen.
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woops
replied on November 29th, 2007
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I hate this whole idea of us not being to blame, it's irrelivant. If I were to do horrible things and everytime I hurt someone instantly start giving reasons in a not to blame fashion instead of giving a damn that I hurt someone and at least try to stop it, I would be a complete person, doing the wrong thing over and over and then explaining it, knowing what happened but not doing anything or caring. You may not be to blame, but do you give a dam? If this is true and a horrible person were to know it, it would only be bad and contribute to the continuation of suffering. This idea really gets in the way of the betterment of our world. Until one cares, it is a bad thing that one is not to blame.

And after writing all of this it continues with this not being to blame thing, the killing doesn't stop, cruelty doesn't cease, and no ones to blame, nothing is ever done, and no one is to blame, I live with a bunch of animals and no one is to blame. If you are horrible to others, they are not going to care are they? The voice simply replies with, "no one is to blame".

For god sake! It won't think at all!
It would be better if you were to blame I believe.
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Duzz
replied on November 29th, 2007
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No one is to blame.

Maybe it's referring to the fact that there is no right or wrong? Because honestly, it's a given fact that if I punch someone, I am to blame for their hurt.
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woops
replied on November 29th, 2007
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Well, whichever way it is I know that it is worthless to know, that it is only explaining a peice of crap and why it stinks.
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