What the Voice Is Saying Now. Posted: 11-19-07 20:14pm
Well, it's been weeks and the voice in my
mind is completely sounding like a broken
record, it goes on and on about how all of
the fleshly beings on this planet are not
in control of themselves, how we do not
choose what kind've people we are, how we
are all given our state of beings, it says
that a lion cannot be blamed for having
sharp teeth, over and over and over and
over and over and over and over and over
and over again it talks about this. It
wants me to understand that people that do
evil aren't to blame, it really can't talk
about the good ones. Unceasingly filling
my head with this pointless idea.
Seriously, trying to get me to understand
evil people, how rediculous, the only
thing to understand about them is that
they suck and should be stayed away from,
if that's even possible. Hypocrite
voices, who would've thunk it. Imagine, a
bunch of seriously poopy people asking you
to understand that they can't help doing
awful things to you over and over.
Imagine, the virus isn't to blame for
killing animals, the animals aren't to
blame for killing people, the people
aren't to blame for killing animals and
eachother, the earth isn't to blame for
killing people. Well, fantastic voice.
If the lion isn't to blame for killing a
child, is it still not an ugly state of
being, it should have never been and must
be stopped, and nobody will be to blame
for that.
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woops
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Posted: 11-19-07 20:29pm
And right after writing this, it continued
on about the crappy ways of the world, I
keep telling it that it's pointless to
think about, why try and simply understand
why there is k illing over and over again
when it doesn't ever stop. Man, just
shutup and leave me be! what?!
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Philo
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Posted: 11-19-07 23:05pm
Have you tried talking to it? Does it
respond?
I myself am severe trouble with evil
tonight, it's in my body, it's cold and
devillish and it won't leave. I feel sick.
I don't really believe that evil and good
exist, so it's kind of ridiculous.
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Georgia59
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Posted: 11-20-07 17:56pm
Hey philo- sorry to hear you are
struggling. Did is pass? Are you feeling
better?
It might help if you (I think I remember
you saying you were seeing a doc and on
meds?) write down things like this and
keep a record of different experiences
that you have. Same for you, woops.
Writing things down gives you more power
while facing doctors.
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Philo
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Posted: 11-20-07 22:23pm
It comes once or several times per day,
and knocks me down. The doc gave me once
some pills for the shivers (apart from the
risperdal) and they worked a little bit,
though they made my mouth dry like crazy.
Lately I haven't been using them because
it hasn't been that bad, and now my
prescription for them ran out.
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Georgia59
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Posted: 11-21-07 11:01am
Ooh that's too bad.
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woops
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Posted: 11-24-07 18:44pm
It responds, yes. Sometimes it speaks for
me, and thinks for me, sort've putting
words into my mouth. When I ask it who it
is, it replys "satan". No joke.
Here, ill ask it when it will go away. It
said "never". It later added that I would
be the one going away in time.
Perhaps I should write things down, but
dear god, If I were to tell my doctor that
there is a voice living in my head who
tells me it is the evil spirit satan, what
would happen?
I actually enjoy asking it questions,
well, meaningless questions, like what's
your favorite color? It said "black".
Which do you like best? The sun or the
moon? It said the "sun", after apparently
not being able to decide, but after some
deliberation it decided that it likes the
sun the best because it burns people.
Would anybody like to ask satan a
question?
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Georgia59
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Posted: 11-25-07 15:08pm
woops
wrote:
Perhaps I should write things down, but
dear god, If I were to tell my doctor that
there is a voice living in my head who
tells me it is the evil spirit satan, what
would happen?
What would happen is the doctor would talk
to you about it and figure out why there
is a voice in your head and help you make
it go away.
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Philo
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Posted: 11-25-07 18:17pm
When I tell my doctor that the devil is
moving around the muscles in my face he
doesn't say anything.
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woops
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Posted: 11-25-07 18:45pm
It's as if they know what is wrong with us
and we're constantly being lied to about
it, I suppose I could tell him about it if
he already knew what it was and I were to
not act on it and just sit here and
suffer, but I suppose I don't have to do
anything about it, only be patient.
(These two little horrible children are in
the room with me killing people with
chainsaws on their computer games, it's
making me ill, they are so stupid, I know
that they are being lied to, like taking
candy from a baby.)
The only way that this will stop is the
end of my body, and man, I hope that is
just the end of me completely, just no
more, I don't want to be a ghost or
spirit, ya know how in the bible it says
that god can destroy the spirit so don't
be afraid of the ones that kill the body,
I hope he destroys me after doing this
stupid crap, seeing as how he can't do
anything right.
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Philo
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Posted: 11-25-07 19:44pm
I know, the afterlife scares the hell out
of me, that this stuff will continue and I
will be a schizophrenic spirit without
even a body to hang on to. And I don't
really want to go to heaven, the idea
seems so flaky!
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woops
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Posted: 11-25-07 20:00pm
And it persists today, no ones to blame,
it is our nature, our creation, that we
couldnt stop it if we wanted to. I keep
telling it that it is only saying stupid
things about crappy things that are only
wrong. It keeps trying to explain
earthquakes in principle, it says that
the tectonic plates shift and then the
ground shakes and kills a bunch of people
and destroys a bunch of buildings, and
then it says that the ground can't help
it, its the earth's nature. You see what
I mean, what's the use of explaining an
earthquake in this manner?
Would you agree that frankenstein isn't to
blame, but must be stopped, does this not
make sense, if something sucks, don't
accept it, and struggle to stop it right,
if you can, do everything in your power
anywho.
I wish that it would stop defending people
and their poop, merely talking endlessly
about crappy horrible things.
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Philo
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Posted: 11-25-07 20:56pm
I don't totally agree with the voice. I do
think many people that do evil things
don't know it, and those who do find it
hard to change their behaviour, but change
IS possible, with hard work and
dedication.
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Sesshomaru-Sama
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Posted: 11-26-07 00:08am
i find that theres always two consenting
opnions in my head, not so much a voice.
when i have a thought it is immediatelty
negated by the other "side".this basically
leaves me in a mental stupor not knowing
what to think. has anyone else experienced
this?
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Duzz
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Posted: 11-26-07 00:16am
Sess, I know what you mean. That happens
to me at times as well, and I just believe
it to be myself questioninig everything.
If I say the sky is blue, I can think
'What if it really isn't blue', and then I
willr ealize it doens't matter if it's
blue or not, as it looks blue to me, and
that's all that matters.
Also, woops, maybe it's trying to prove a
point?
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Philo
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Posted: 11-26-07 18:39pm
I used to get the two contending opinions
symptom too. I was walking around all day
confused. My girlfriend at the time was
mad at me that I'm so undecided.
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woops
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Posted: 11-27-07 18:51pm
It's trying to prove a point? All of the
time?
Pointless points? I suppose it really
likes points, because it won't shutup,
ever.
Here is my point, whether people are to
blame or not, the suffering will not
cease. And of course it won't listen.
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woops
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Posted: 11-29-07 17:47pm
I hate this whole idea of us not being to
blame, it's irrelivant. If I were to do
horrible things and everytime I hurt
someone instantly start giving reasons in
a not to blame fashion instead of giving a
damn that I hurt someone and at least try
to stop it, I would be a complete person,
doing the wrong thing over and over and
then explaining it, knowing what happened
but not doing anything or caring. You may
not be to blame, but do you give a dam?
If this is true and a horrible person were
to know it, it would only be bad and
contribute to the continuation of
suffering. This idea really gets in the
way of the betterment of our world. Until
one cares, it is a bad thing that one is
not to blame.
And after writing all of this it continues
with this not being to blame thing, the
killing doesn't stop, cruelty doesn't
cease, and no ones to blame, nothing is
ever done, and no one is to blame, I live
with a bunch of animals and no one is to
blame. If you are horrible to others,
they are not going to care are they? The
voice simply replies with, "no one is to
blame".
For god sake! It won't think at all!
It would be better if you were to blame I
believe.
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Duzz
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Posted: 11-29-07 19:01pm
No one is to blame.
Maybe it's referring to the fact that
there is no right or wrong? Because
honestly, it's a given fact that if I
punch someone, I am to blame for their
hurt.
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woops
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Posted: 11-29-07 19:07pm
Well, whichever way it is I know that it
is worthless to know, that it is only
explaining a peice of crap and why it
stinks.
