I'm 15 years old and I think that i've been depressed since I was about 11. I didnt really recodnize the feeling of depression at first, so i could never figure out why i was always so unenergetic and unmotivated all the time. It used to be that i would lay on the floor in my room for long periods of time and just stare at the ceiling, wanting to cry but not be able to. I basically have nothing to be depressed over, i am not ugly, i have a nice body, i get good grades, i'm smart and i have no family problems. I also have lots of great friends and aquaintices.

My depression went away for a while when i started going out with my current boyfriend, but now its come back again for no reason.

i dont know why I've felt so miserable for so long but lately its been getting much worse. Over the past 2 or 3 months i've felt more depressed then ever, and i've had many suicidal thoughts. No attempts yet but I've come close to following through. I am scaring my boyfriend alot and hes worried about me. He wants me to get help but I'm not sure whether or not this is something that will just pass in time. I cry often in front of him and it hardly takes anything to make me angry or upset. I've been having mood swings lately as well, just today i started crying while talking to him about my problem then 5 min later i felt great and even started laughing at everything, as if i was high. Now I'm just depressed again.

I dont know what to do or how to stop this, i really hate making him upset and worried over me and i dont understand whats going on with my head. I just want to be happy again and make him happy as well. Please give me advice on what i should do, should i try taking medication or going to therapy of some sort? Could it be possible that i have some sort of a mental disorder? My mood swings are starting to get really bad...