I dont know what to do. I cant take anything. I cant talk about it cuz i just sound like a blubbering fool when i cry. I have no firends who will just come over and hang out for no reason. I thought having my grandparents here would be nice but they act like im bothering them when im over. I just wanna be able to hang out and do a puzzle like we use to but if im not unpacking something im being lazy. My aunt cant stand me for more than 2 hrs cuz she has so many pet peeves and i seem to nag everyone of them. My mom doesnt listen to anything I say. Im basically a single parent who gets to talk to my husband 30 mins of each day if im lucky. Wed. night i was talking to the only friend i have in the area who claims shell be there whenever i need her, and she was like so il see you tomorrow and i was like what for? Greys anatomy. So last night i called to be like see u at 9? and she was like o i dunno im hanging out with anna. so i was upset and was like but i thought u said u were coming over, and she said i will see u later. so i called her at like 920 and she didnt answer. she calls me today like nothings the matter and i told her i was mad cuz she said she was coming then didnt and was ignoring my calls, couldnt even tell me nm i think im not coming over, just ignored me. now shes saying im being unreasonable and b*tchy cuz im mad. i really cant stand to have anymore ppl just let me down. i cant do this anymore. i just want to run away. i just dont know where to go. im seriously so close to packing up the car and just driving somewhere. not answering my phone and just letting everyone go.

sorry for using the word like so many times, i just cant think straight