once its out of his system he'll experiance what got him on the drugs in the first place. the insomnia doesnt let up either. dont expect the worst but also dont expect everything to be normal either.

Well the insomnia is hard on him, he has not consulted his Doctor and I am wondering what he would say. He is fun and smiles and is affectionate that is the upside-as far as what he was like before and those symptoms...I dont know-he has described himself as angry or maybe mean. Neither of which I can see him being with me..I am not in his body so I cant tell what he means when he says he doesnt feel right. I am watching him carefully right now and hope for the best.

Well we definately had an episode, his wick is very short and he dissappeared to a (or several) bars. HE would not call to say where he was, he would only send text messages which were along the lines of " Im drunk, going to stay at a hotel" it wasnt even 8pm yet. I went hysterical, I was worried about what affect no meds were having, his state of mind, him driving-so many things. I cried an ocean of tears. He came home shorty after and passed out. No matter what advise I have been given, I laid right into him-I was so angry and hurt!
He seems sorry for doing that, but he has a short short wick now...Its like there is no room for me to have isssues-his consume everything. I am going through alot and I need to lean on him, he is great at giving others advice..Just not hearing me.

My issues really are not his bipolar ( that just makes it harder ) its simply job stress, financial stress, and the fact that we are going to be seperated for the holidays. Its a long distance thing I guess-but I want to feel like a family and I want him to be commited to me. I dont think he really cares that we will be apart, only that I will complain about it. It some ways he treats me like a princess, in others he seems indifferent..Holidays are hard, I am away from my family in a new place, and I want to start making memories and traditions togather. I feel I dont fit into to his life...And I dont think he is used to how I love and do things...I am getting the impression through him that he grew up in a very cold enviroment..