Ok so I actually lost it a few months ago. My guy put his penis in me but it hurt to much and I was not sure if I really wanted to do it then so I said no and he was fine with that. I know it still counts and all but in my mind and heart it doesn't have to.

Anyway the guy I and took a break for awhile because we both had so much going on and now we are back together and playing around again. We were goofing around on Sunday night, and I don't think he got all the way in but I really don't know. Anyway he used a condom and I'm on the pills I have been for awhile for bad cramps. But now I'm still so scared, I don't want to get pregnant I have so much planned and I can't have a baby at this time in my life while I'm working towards it. Not only that but I'm really scared about getting a STD, I know that some of them don't show up for years later so even if I'm fine now it could show up later.

Anyway, I'm just really nervous, I want to have fun with this guy and enjoy being with him but I can't because I'm so nervous about getting pregnant or about getting something and I really don't know what to do.

If anyone has some advice for me it would really be great. I could use some advice so I stop freaking out.