I'm currently supposed to be taking an anti-psychotic, but the side effect of sedation is just too much. I play a sport where the sedation is just too debilitating, and my continuously bad performance has made me really depressed. This sport is the most important thing in the world to me, and i cant get my pdoc to understand this, so a while ago i went off my meds. I haven't told anyone about it yet, and i dont know when, and if, i should. See, ever since i went off, i have been so happy and finally optimistic about the future, and actually been able to acomplish getting my work done for school. It would kill me (I was suicidal when facing the sedation while on the meds, though the doctor wont attribute it to that and keeps changing the subject whenever i bring that up), and i really wont be able to bear going back on the meds. Yes, i do have active delusions, but i dont have any bizarre behavior. How long should i wait before telling the pdoc of what i've done, to convince him that i should remain off of them, or should i just keep it to myself?