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Posted: 11-11-07 2:37pm
Hi guys,

I am 19 year's old and I have been with my boyfriend(21 yrs old) for almost a year. He is my first REAL boyfriend...At the beginning things were great. But i think all relationships are great of first. Here being a year later, things are definitely not great. My boyfriend is insanely jeolous and constantly asks me if i talk to guys at school or who is this guy, who is that guy. He gets mad at me when i want to look good like fix up my hair or wear makeup and asks ..."who are you trying to impress?? people at school??". He thinks everything is slutty/whory when it comes to clothes i want to wear sometimes. Also, he gets angry easily .. so easily. he doesnt want me going out with my girlfriends to the bar or something .. not cause he apparently doesnt trust me but b/c he doesnt trust guys. B*llsh*t. he has also come to the point where he has hit me, pushed me, dragged me, squezzed my arms, and lifted me up by the neck... im a 5'1 little girl he is almost 6 feet. I have gotten bruises on my arms.. everywhere. i got this bruise once on my arm and it was REALLY bad it was bleeding inside. his older sister has asked him to the side what happend to my arms and he lied and prettended he didnt know what she was talking about.. he is very embarassed that he does these things to me. he doesnt want anyone to know. He has also threatened me that he is going to see other girls and has told me to F*ck off but next minute he is hugging me saying sorry and not to leave? i nearly break down in tears. i am so confused of all this.

I have given him so many chances... why you may ask? He can also make me the most happiest person in the world. He loves me and shows it so much at times. He drives to my house which is 30 min away because i don't drive... and he drives me everywhere. he takes me to work we have lunch everyday. He cares about me. he doesnt want me getting hurt, he wants to make sure im confortable. He also says im the best girlfriend he has ever had and cries when i want to leave. he begs me not too. he says he needs me. He has gone through alot.. his parents JUST divorced, he's never had a real family life and his sister has recently left the house becasue she got married. he is all alone now. his dad is constantly at work running thier busniess and he has told me his parents were never home all his life. They also apparently underestimate him alot too.. he was a dumb kid in school. never got good grades.. never really tried. and was always the jokester.. he is very popular and has a lot of firends because of his funny personality. His ex-girlfriends have also had a toll on him. They were LIARS and very abusive also.. I dont understand why he is like that to me? because i am definitely like his ex-girlfriends. I love him so much and care about him. sometimes i feel so bad for him and think .. there are other reasons why he can be both emotionaly and physically abusive.. He is all i got right now. Honestly the love in my life i only recieve is from him My parents totally disrespect me and i feel they hate me because i havea boyfriend (i am 19!!) they are old school traditional parents and all they want me to do is clean the house n get good grades and not havea boyfriend. THAT is not fair so i dont respect them either

My friend tells me: "he is only want you know now. that doesnt mean hes going to be all you know forever"

She wants me to break up with him and leave him. BUt i can't i care about him too much to leave.

I dont know. life is realy confusing/hard right now. What do you guys think about this ?