You've all seen the literatures that depict the severity of my suffering, with all that being noted and said I'm getting states of very substantial depression, confusion, and aggression. Abnormal levels like the feeling urges to do stuff that is irreversible and unmoral if you catch my drift. I'm writing this because thats not the man i want to be, and the direction i want to head. I'm heading into a pool of lava and i need some leverage and some help climbing out of this hole. I'm finding life meaningless to live (depression) no one understands / appreciates my sacrifices and pain (also depression) and i'm very confused about who i am, where i'lkl end up, does it matter if i live or die, i mean i'm so psychologically overwhelmed I don't even know what to think. What should i do?? and please don't recommend therapy or anything stupid like that, first off i'm dirt poor me and my family struggle to make ends meet so i'm just wanting your "unprofessional" opinions because to me, you're better than the professionals because you have TMJD and suffer similar circumstances as I. so Tell me where to stand what to do, because i'm here, i'm a fighter i'm willing to fight the fight just show me the battle ground.