Hi there. Im 28 and have had depression for about 15 years. I seem to be just drifting through life not really caring about much. i dont have any passions or things I am good at (except being depressed) and feel like this will never go away.

I take anti-depressants but they only seem to work for a little while. I dont have any energy and dont go out much. I dont have any friends either and I feel like a burden on my family. They dont understand that I cant just 'fix myself' and it will all be better.

I think about suicide everyday (dont worry I have no plans to) and feel utterly hopeless about life. I have thought about moving and starting over somewhere but I cant escape from my own head.

I dont know how to help myself. I have an auto-immune condition that makes it hard to exercise (I know that helps with depression) and makes me very tired and weak. All I want to do is sleep all the time.

I came out of a serious relationship about a year ago now. I initiated the break-up because I thought that it was making me unhappy. Now I realize that I am more unhappy without him but he has moved on already.I have no idea how I will meet someone else and feel pretty lonely.

I have also started cutting which I have never done before. I think I do it just to feel something.

Im scared that Im in so deep I cant get out.

Any advice would be appreciated.