My wife of 2 years,diagnosed 1 year ago with bi polar, is an amazing person. She is the most interesting woman I have ever met. Intelligent, funny, kinda crazy. But I like it you know? I hate to say it but sometimes, I miss the bipolar person that I fell inlove with. She would say the most inappropriate stuff, and she was always hitting on me in front of my girlfriend at the time!! But I thought it was cute. Call me sick. I sometimes wish secretly that she could stop taking her medication because even though she was embarrassing at times and could be really mean, there was also this wonderful, loving person who just LOVED having me around. She would always tell me how much she loved me and that I was perfect, blah, blah blah. I know it was the bipolar talking, but come on, who doesnt like hearing that stuff? Anyway, I know she is not gonna stop taking medication and I know that is the right choice anyway. I just wish that it hadnt changed her into such a DIFFERENT person. For the last year I dont even feel like she is the same. Not even close. We used to be so affectionate and have sex all the time and it was great! We were just so close and everyone knew it and they would always say how perfect we were for eachother. I mean, honestly the thing I miss most is just talking. But I dont know how to bring her back from where she has gone. She has taken lamictal and seroquel and depakote and blah this and smack that. WHATEVER you know!!?? I am sick of dealing with a new person every three months because the current medication isnt working. It has really, REALLY started to get to me. Its all I think about sometimes. The other day we went out with a couple of friends and my brother and I was SO frustrated and just done, that I fought my brother! COme on! I love my brother. I am at my wits end and I miss my sweetie. Am I being stupid wishing she could stop taking her meds? I know its wrong, but I fell in love with her when she was bipolar and didnt know it. And neither did I. Honestly we did better when she was all manic and crazy. I am sure this is not common at all but I am a little nuts too, so I guess that probably has something to do with it. I gotta admit it has been the toughest relationship emotionally I have ever had. She can just say the meanest things, she always flirts and its like her way or the highway, you know? I just miss her sometimes and I will stop health forum. I am glad this is here because I know what you all are going through. Feel free to say what you want.