Rejection And Lack of Sex Posted: 11-06-07 19:29pm
My wife of 2
years,diagnosed 1 year ago with bi polar,
is an amazing person. She is the most
interesting woman I have ever met.
Intelligent, funny, kinda crazy. But I
like it you know? I hate to say it but
sometimes, I miss the bipolar person that
I fell inlove with. She would say the most
inappropriate stuff, and she was always
hitting on me in front of my girlfriend at
the time!! But I thought it was cute. Call
me sick. I sometimes wish secretly that
she could stop taking her medication
because even though she was embarrassing
at times and could be really mean, there
was also this wonderful, loving person who
just LOVED having me around. She would
always tell me how much she loved me and
that I was perfect, blah, blah blah. I
know it was the bipolar talking, but come
on, who doesnt like hearing that stuff?
Anyway, I know she is not gonna stop
taking medication and I know that is the
right choice anyway. I just wish that it
hadnt changed her into such a DIFFERENT
person. For the last year I dont even feel
like she is the same. Not even close. We
used to be so affectionate and have sex
all the time and it was great! We were
just so close and everyone knew it and
they would always say how perfect we were
for eachother. I mean, honestly the thing
I miss most is just talking. But I dont
know how to bring her back from where she
has gone. She has taken lamictal and
seroquel and depakote and blah this and
smack that. WHATEVER you know!!?? I am
sick of dealing with a new person every
three months because the current
medication isnt working. It has really,
REALLY started to get to me. Its all I
think about sometimes. The other day we
went out with a couple of friends and my
brother and I was SO frustrated and just
done, that I fought my brother! COme on! I
love my brother. I am at my wits end and I
miss my sweetie. Am I being stupid wishing
she could stop taking her meds? I know its
wrong, but I fell in love with her when
she was bipolar and didnt know it. And
neither did I. Honestly we did better when
she was all manic and crazy. I am sure
this is not common at all but I am a
little nuts too, so I guess that probably
has something to do with it. I gotta admit
it has been the toughest relationship
emotionally I have ever had. She can just
say the meanest things, she always flirts
and its like her way or the highway, you
know? I just miss her sometimes and I will
stop health forum. I am glad this is here
because I know what you all are going
through. Feel free to say what you want.
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abnrmlmind
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 55
Posted: 11-06-07 23:14pm
i absolutely know what your talking about.
when i was on medication i wanted to
sleep i felt dull and i just wasnt the
same. i decided to stop one day and since
then ive semi changed back. i sometimes
wish i was still on medication then theres
times when im glad to not be on meds.
meds are really important... its just
something that has to be worked on till
its right. you may have been happy but it
can get pretty rough inside someones head
that has bpd.
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Barto
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
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What Do You Mean Posted: 11-07-07 08:17am
whay is it so hard? It seems like it would
be a dream come true. It sounds like being
on meth without any of the health risks.
No need for sleep,heightened
senses,intelligence seems very common. I
am just trying to figure out how a BP
thinks. Honestly. Cuz I want to face this
head on. It interests me that this is a
condition. Maybe you can shed some more
light on what DOES go on. That would rule.
Thanks for the reply.
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abnrmlmind
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 55
Posted: 11-07-07 17:40pm
thats a hard question to answer. no one is
going to be the same or have the same
problems, but in some way are similar.
pending on the person depression can be
enough to commit suicide to. thats how
low and bad things can get. bpd has a high
risk of suicide. also drug use as a way of
self medicating
(illegal,prescription,alcohol). a mania
can hard for lack of sleep cause more
stress to the point of walking a thin red
line. its hard to explain what someone
thinks that has bpd. i try but i tend to
wonder off and forget. which i have to be
in a good mood and have a reason. ill be
back with more
My wife of 2
years,diagnosed 1 year ago with bi polar,
is an amazing person. She is the most
interesting woman I have ever met.
Intelligent, funny, kinda crazy. But I
like it you know? I hate to say it but
sometimes, I miss the bipolar person that
I fell inlove with. She would say the most
inappropriate stuff, and she was always
hitting on me in front of my girlfriend at
the time!! But I thought it was cute. Call
me sick. I sometimes wish secretly that
she could stop taking her medication
because even though she was embarrassing
at times and could be really mean, there
was also this wonderful, loving person who
just LOVED having me around. She would
always tell me how much she loved me and
that I was perfect, blah, blah blah. I
know it was the bipolar talking, but come
on, who doesnt like hearing that stuff?
Anyway, I know she is not gonna stop
taking medication and I know that is the
right choice anyway. I just wish that it
hadnt changed her into such a DIFFERENT
person. For the last year I dont even feel
like she is the same. Not even close. We
used to be so affectionate and have sex
all the time and it was great! We were
just so close and everyone knew it and
they would always say how perfect we were
for eachother. I mean, honestly the thing
I miss most is just talking. But I dont
know how to bring her back from where she
has gone. She has taken lamictal and
seroquel and depakote and blah this and
smack that. WHATEVER you know!!?? I am
sick of dealing with a new person every
three months because the current
medication isnt working. It has really,
REALLY started to get to me. Its all I
think about sometimes. The other day we
went out with a couple of friends and my
brother and I was SO frustrated and just
done, that I fought my brother! COme on! I
love my brother. I am at my wits end and I
miss my sweetie. Am I being stupid wishing
she could stop taking her meds? I know its
wrong, but I fell in love with her when
she was bipolar and didnt know it. And
neither did I. Honestly we did better when
she was all manic and crazy. I am sure
this is not common at all but I am a
little nuts too, so I guess that probably
has something to do with it. I gotta admit
it has been the toughest relationship
emotionally I have ever had. She can just
say the meanest things, she always flirts
and its like her way or the highway, you
know? I just miss her sometimes and I will
stop health forum. I am glad this is here
because I know what you all are going
through. Feel free to say what you want.
