Ive Been Feeling Depressed

I've known this girl since before primary school, i loved her the second i met her. But then we got to year 7 we got split up to different school's, for a while we met up and had a good time she became really good freind's with this over guy who was a year up from us [year 8] i then became best freinds with this guy but as we were freind's it became a constent argument over the attension of the girl. i then fell out with this guy and we didnt talk with eachover for ages, she then felt she had to choose a side when she didnt have to and when and chose the other guys side of the story, i didnt speak to her hardly atall over half a year. i then had the balls to tell her how i felt about her for all this time and how depressed over the time we were not freinds she went with the obvious reaction i was thinking she would go with wich is[":["] by this point i know she doesnt have a clue what shes done to me. i made freinds with the guy again hopeing it would makes things better but it hasnt really yet, and ive spent every day at home since this started, my whole summer in doors on the laptop doing nothing but this posteing in forums and youtube.. help me.

Edit: forgot to mention im now in year 8 and the guys in year 9.