So Frustrated I Want to Cry :-(

Ok... i dont know what Jacobs problem has been lately, but the last 2 days hes been SO FRUSTRATING.

I cant even make a motion that im leaving a room (I.e., adjusting myself on the couch or i dunno, saying the word LEAVE or *i'll be right back*) without him seriously going MENTAL. i mean, the *huh-huh-huh-waahhh-f-f-f* gasping for air hyperventilating crying.. SCREAMING like the scariest person in the universe is trying to abduct him.. or like hes so scared he could faint.

I had to hold my pee for THREE HOURS becuase he wouldnt let me leave the room. He'd go nuts if i got up from where i was sitting to just walk across the room to get something. *MOMMY!!MOMMY!! SIT DOWN!! NOO!!!!* Its like he thinks im going to leave him or something and not come back. I never ever dealt with this from him before.

This morning when I had just woke up, I had to pee.. Jacob again went crazy.. (he YET AGAIN got up at 4 am and came in and got into our bed) so i REALLY had to go, so i put the baby gate up (because our basement stairs dont have a door and i didnt want him falling down them) told him i'd be RIGHT BACK to chill out, and i ran to the bathroom.. I come out of the bathroom, and lo and behold, his ass had CLIMBED over the babygate and was making his way down the hall. His sister was all chillaxin watching Blues Clues-- no matta no matta with her.

I just dont know whats going on with him.. When he goes to bed at night, he has has hasss to be right up against me laying down with him or else its WW3. if i move an inch i get MOMMY! MOMMY! MOMMY!! COME BACK! so i usually lay there uncomfortable as can be just to get him to sleep.

Last night it took me TWO HOURS to get him to sleep. TWO HOURS. He fought me tooth and nail the ENTIRE time. Kept his sister up, when she would doze off, he's start screaming and she'd wake up. Did this til almost 1 am.

Yesterday i couldnt even make lunch for the kids without him going crazy. (and i mean CRAZY) flailing himself around, screaming.. So i went hungry til Rob came home.. i couldnt PEE, let alone make myself anything to eat.

Then i put them down for naps.. ANOTHER FIGHT. Then they only slept for like, a half hour. After i got done cleaning up the living room and the lunch stuff, they had woke up.

I just.. *sigh* wish i knew what his deal was.

Im glad they finally went to sleep just now.. Im not even going to BOTHER with cleaning right now.. i just cant. Im gunna grab a bite to eat real quick then just sit on my ass and do NOTHING til they wake up. God knows how long they'll be asleep.