I planned out my Halloween in a way so that I could fit in taking Rowan trick or treating and then going out with my friends to Kingston.

I was going to take her to Erik's mom's side of town because she asked me to come by so she could see Rowan and give her some candy, and also Rowan's great grandparents live around the block from her and they wanter to see her too. It would have been much easier just to take her in our neighbourhood, but I knew they all wanted to see her and I like doing nice things for people.

I was going to take her out for about an hour or so and then drop her off at Erik's moms who agreed to watch her for the night. Then me and Nathan would leave for Kingston. She was fully aware of these plans, and said she planned to hand out candy during the evenings.

When I got her from the daycare yesterday after class and brought her home I gave her some food right away, and an early nap so she wouldn't be too tired. Then I got her dressed. I mean, I went out and bought her a costume, I planned out the night, and I got her ready. I did the work part to prepare.

So me and Nathan drive to Erik's moms side of town and we stop at her house first so she can see Rowan and we can leave Rowan's over night stuff there. Erik's moms sister, sisters daughter, and sisters grandaughter were trick or treating and had just passed Eriks moms house before we got there. So she yells at them to come back and see Rowan, and they come and take a picture of Rowan and start walking to the next houses. Now I guess this is where Erik's mom (I'll call her Theresa from here on in because it's easier, and because that is her name) decideds she is completely gung ho about being a baby stealer. So she GRABS Rowan from me and says she is going to take her trick or treating with her sister them. I say "actually I was planning on taking her out first". She turns around and ignores me and starts putting on her shoes and steps outside and closes the door. I say it again, and she talks over me, making no eye contact, but clearly knowing what she is doing. I mean, it wasn't a misunderstanding, she could hear me. I say it about 4 times and reach to take Rowan back and she keeps turning away and talking over me and she says " I have to go now" and starts walking across the lawn towards them. Nathan is looking at her, and then at me, and shaking his head like "what the hell is wrong with this woman". I was so mad at this point but I couldn't really think of what to do. I knew I didn't want to play physical tug of war with Rowan or scream in the street and infront of the baby. I was going to enjoy all the candy we got trick or treating, since Rowan obviously couldn't. I was looking forward to taking Rowan out, and getting to eat all her candy! So before we left Theresa's house I run inside and take her bowl of candy and empty it into my plastic bag, and I also open the box of candies on her table and take those too. Then we leave and I start yelling all the horrible names that she is and how much I hate her. And Nathan, the good good boy, just listens and agrees.

She is a teacher at my highschool and Rowan's daycare is in the highschool, so the plan was that I was suppose to leave the carseat at her house and she would drop Rowan off at daycare when she went to work. Since she just ran off and and was not listening to me I didn't think about taking the carseat out of Nathan's car and leaving it for her. I just couldn't really think at that moment about stuff like that. And frankly, when we had already driven half way home and I remembered about the carseat situation I didn't care if she wasn't able to get to work on time, or if she had to put Rowan in the stroller and walk to work. I thought it was sort of her own fault and she could figure out a way to deal with it, and it felt very nice inconveniencing her... In the morning when she realized she couldn't get to work she left messages on my msn and phone saying "YOU GUYS FORGOT TO LEAVE THE CARSEAT. Nathan needs to come get Rowan I am going to be late for work." I figured we aren't going to drive around catering to her when she thinks she runs the show, she can deal with it herself, I'm not freaken waiting on her and being her little b**** when she completely disregards what I say and my plans.

I was so mad. I hate her. She is a worthless selfish human being. The other thing that makes me so angry is that she was the one who wouldn't let Erik sign adoption papers (and I'm not angry at this because I regret keeping Rowan, that isn't what I'm saying) but now she acts like she's lost interest in Rowan. Like the novelty has worn off or something. She doesn't ask to take her any more and whenever I need a night off she is "busy, sorry". The last time she had Rowan visit we didn't set specific times for Rowan to come home and she came here after having Rowan at her house for only 3 hours to drop her off. Is 3 hours too much to spend with your grandchild now? Shouldn't you want to be able to have her spend some time with you? Did she think having a grandchild would be amusing and fun but now that she has a new boyfriend she doesn't need Rowan to make her happy anymore? Because I swear her motive to stop the adoption was because she thought a baby would be fun and make her happy. She's completely mental, and selfish. Since she started seeing her boyfriend she has no more time for Rowan.

I was seriously so steamed, because what could I do. I wanted to take Rowan out for her first Halloween. I was the one who planned it and bought a constume and I was the one who got her ready, why should she just get to take her and do the fun part? What a ....asdkjahsdfasdfasdf.

ugh...

Anyways, thanks for listening. In the spirit of Halloween I drew this picture of Erik's mom (her face annoys the hell out of me, and her voice). I'm not done but I thought I would share.



This is so long, I don't know why stories that only need a paragraph to be told always end up being like whole books with me. I wonder if anyone will read all the way to here.