I've felt this way ever since I was a kid. It's a struggle to interact socially with people, and I can't focus. There are holes in my memory, and sometimes I just can't keep my thoughts together. About two years ago my psychiatrist told me I was depressed, and I took prozac for a while. Recently, these symptoms returned--I thought of suicide before, but just as passing thoughts. I have a good family, I suppose, that I would not want to harm. I've also had sessions with a therapist, but ended up crying every time and did not think it helped me much at all, because I didn't like the way she wanted to poke about my thoughts. Now this--whatever this is--is affecting my school performances, and moreover, I just feel dumb. I often can't remember what I've said or done a day before, and everything just seems to slip. I've stopped caring much about a lot I used to care for. But I still don't think I'm serious enough to be getting help. After all, I’m not trying to do anything extreme at the moment, or anytime in the future. A part of me also doesn't want help from people, because it's all too awkward and complicated to unravel.