Hey I have joined many forums but just for chit chats and nothing serious like
Well I guess I shall start today and now
I am 19 years of age and well gosh quiet hard to say I am bulimic since age 13
But it really started when I was in year 9 and I am nearly 20 years of age am happy married I got a supportive husband but really he supports me with my insomnia but I haven’t told him about my eating habits, he has sensed that I got eating issues as I don’t eat whenever we eat together,
Its all started with my parents/family problems. I have grown up with drug addicts and alcoholic brothers which turned out lives upside down, this include constant arguing, violent encounters which I got hurt in process stopping it. I even look after a child full responsibility of a child who got special needs whose the son of my older brother and due to circumstances he doesn’t have his mother with him
I would of said so would other that I was a strong person, I cooked cleaned stopped fights, arguments (well tried and got hurt) but I looked after this child whose nearly 7 for 5 years as if he was my own.
But age 14 whilst fasting in the holy month I just started to throw up. Quiet ironic but yeah, so I woke up when sunrise early morning at 5 am drank water. . . Sunset fast opened at 5/6pm I ate. . . Later I throw up
I was well am quiet slim and well this habit lasted until now where I tried to stop it but I cant I cry in the bathroom I cry when my insomnia starts eating me up
I got a very very very supported sister I told her this but I with her strong words Im lying to her saying I stopped puking out.
My husband was my choice very nice and decent lad. Very respective and lovely I thought getting married now would help me move away from my depressing family but really mentally am there and I cant.
Last year was a hard year I used to have blackouts, I became animic but that didn’t sop me now
I tried every consultation to help my disorder along with my insomnia but I cant, but I want to hear such things from people that may have similar stories
Sorry if I got off topic but like I say its nice to get feedback from people that knows bits and bobs from you and really you don’t know them as the people u trust may hit it back when a relationship is on the verge of breaking!