You need to get some kind of help from somewhere. As I have said before, medications can only do so much and the rest is up to you. Cutting is an acting out of anger, depression or even a want of self infliction for any reason. You have to figure out what is the trigger that is causing you to cut. What are you depressed over and try and rearrange it. You have not cut for so long, you know you can stop. Now it is time to stop before it gets out of hand again. I do agree that an anti-depressent will probably take the edge off. But, it is going to take you to take the horse by the ranes and get a grip on this thing.
By posting here you are going to get the compassion and help you need to make it though this. That is what we are all here for.
I myself never cut. In my day it was just take enough pills to make you sick and then call for help.
I really hope you can find a doctor that can manage you problems. But, there has to be something that has recently gotton you depressed enough to start cutting again. Let's get going and find out what that is OK.
Try and wheen down off that zopiclone if you can. If not you might need to go into a rehab to help you out with that.
Just remember, you are in the right place and we all are here for you.
Living in a different country may be the reason here. You feel lost and out of place. Do you think that could have a bearing on you depression? How long have you lived there? Are you not happy in your surroundings?

Can anyone else add thier thoughts to this one please.

Carrie

Hi,

I’m in a similar situation. I have always been depressed and did quite a bit of self-injury throughout my teen years. Things improved and I eventually grew out of this habit.

I am now 28 and while I have had some slip ups here and there, it’s only now that I feel that my depression and my cutting is getting out of control. My episodes usually happen at work. I become so emotionally agitated, that it’s the only way to calm myself down. I fear I would do something much worse if I didn’t cut myself.
This week I have appt. with my doctor to get back on medication, and hopefully I’ll be able to find time to see my old therapist.

There are alternatives to SI you can try to help you work through those rough moments. Things like holding onto ice, cutting into a plastic bottle, tearing up cloth. That sort of thing.