Are Bulimia And Self Harm Related? Posted: 10-26-07 09:54am
I was bulimic at 18, I admitted it to a
lot of people, did counselling for a while
(2 sessions) and more or less stoppped due
to the horrific heart burn, but also coz i
was replacing food with alcohol and
started self harming. This peaked I guess
a couple of years ago, when I stabbed my
arms and ended up in hospital. It seems
the behaviour is interrelated... Im
basically not bulimic but I dont feel
cured - I still obsess over food and my
binges havent stopped, i dont think they
ever well. The last 2 years I have been
officially overweight (slightly) and I do
care, more than anything else, but I
collapse when I realise I cant do anything
to help myself. I eat like a pig and dont
even bother compensating now.. I dont
really know what to do anymore - i dont
know if i even care. The self harming ahs
gone the same way, Im scared of a relapse
but I dont feel capable anymore of hurting
msyelf in this way. I dont know if this
stuff ever gets better, if talking helps,
if I will always be like this
(personality?)... I dont even know where
to begin with counselling and stuff,
admitting it all is so embarrassing and
pathetic, even more so being a guy, and
people NEVER look at you in the same way
again. I guess I sound like a broken
record and your normal depressive type,
but it feels unique to me... I d like just
some people to chat to, I dunno, Im also
scared of reliving it all and dredging up
all the dirt of the past and risking
starting it again. Just reading it makes
my eyes well up.
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baybiinaytii
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Oct 2007 Posts: 8 Location: Dorset, England
Its Okaii Posted: 10-30-07 17:01pm
Hi,
It sounds like ur having a really ahrd
time @ the moment. I think tht it is
related. I self harm and i was diagnosed
as being anorexic/bulimic. I think u need
2 bring bak up ur self confidence. U need
some gud friends hu u can tlk 2 nd hu will
help yuu.I know tht its really hard 2 care
but as soon as u realise tht u do care thn
it will help. Try doing some research on
wat it can do thts wat im doing. Try nd
resist the temptation to self harm. Sit on
ur hands or do sumthing creative, i find
it helps me.
Alsso I think ur incrediibly brave
admitting things on here so there is
obviously part of yuu tht wants help. Try
having small meals and keep urself
occupied so u forget ur worries. Go and do
sumthing u enjoy and being around other
people can really help. Being a guy makes
no difference.
If u need 2 tlk ma addy Im here.
I hope this helps and u can tlk 2 me ne
time u want.
