Q: What can I do to feel better / to relieve depression ?
asked by:
acaciacloud
on October 25th, 2007
New User
Hi I'm new to this forum I don't really have anyone to talk to about this so here it goes. My cousin was found dead after he went missing a few days before his birthday. We were best friends two peas and in pod. We were like two of the same person we could only talk to each other about things and we held the same sense of humor and shared jokes only we could appreciate. His ex is the prime suspect and it makes me sick because I talked to him two days before the police found my cousin's body and he kept trying to convince me that my cousin committed suicide or left him for someone else. They had broken up a few weeks prior and my cousin was coming home and we were going to throw him a huge birthday party. He was so excited about coming home. I just feel like I'm slipping deeper and deeper into sadness and I don't really have anyone to talk to. My boyfriend was a friend to my cousin and he has become an brick wall and only wants to play World of Warcraft. Lately he's been choosing the game over me. I haven't been able to get into contact with my friends and my family is enraged over the whole ordeal and want justice. They put me up on this pedistal because my cousin and I were so close. God I hate this all so much I either want to run away or go to sleep and never wake up. I miss him so much and I love him with all my heart. I talked to a kind detective who is going to prob going to take a statement from me next week. I'm afraid if I have to go to court. If I do go then I would have to see the ex and I'm afraid of what I may do to him. Is there anything I can do to feel better? I feel so lost and alone now.
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