Am I a totally sad , overhormoned melodramatic teenager ? Posted: 10-25-07 21:21pm
I weigh one hundred pounds and I'm
5'9'ish. I'm sisxteen. I am not anorexic,
I just have a high metabolism or
something. I don't know. I actually eat a
lot, maybe its a hormone thing. My entire
family is skinny like me to.
My friend wanted me to do a favor for one
of her friends. He had been rejected twice
for Homecoming and she wanted me to do a
pity date. So I agreed. He backed out
today and told my friend it was because he
thought I was either anorexic or bulimic.
My friend didn't even try to defend me.
Yesterday, a guy who lives near me and is
best friend with my ex gives me a letter
saying he likes me and I shouldn't believe
what everyone says about me being ugly.
Because he thinks I am actually kind of
cute. Would I go out with him please? WHAT
AM I? A 2 YEAR OLD?
And I feel I am ugly. People are always
trying to make me feel good and tell me I
am pretty, but I always have this nagging
thought they are just trying to make me
happy. I have screwed up teeth, contacts,
and I am not blonde. Tan asian chick
actually. But I am not asian, that just
what stereotypical group I end up in.
I'm usually pretty happy and hippie like.
I spread noise really. But I actually have
low self esteem and am pretty shy. I have
tried to hide it for sooooo long. Today,
somebody stole my drink after I ran the
mile in P.E. I got P.O. I told my friend
who tried hooking me up with the choosy
begger, and she ignores me and says her
boyfriend is talking with his ex again.
And I said maybe too snappy, he isn't
cheating on you and he has the freewill to
pick his friends. So SHE tells ME I am
being touchy. She has been snapping at me
about HER boyfriend like this for weeks.
Am I justa comic relief or something? And
I tell her this. And she says, she has
more important problems.
So I am standing there thinking, I am a
totally wrapped overhormoned melodramatic
teenager who is to in myself. Am I?
Sometimes at home alone in my room, I just
sit in a corner and cry. I feel so ugly
and horrible and selfish. And I think I
wrote too much on here. Oh well...
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yogahoneybunny
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Posted: 10-26-07 03:58am
Low self-esteem is pretty common during
the teen years.
You just need to find some self-confidence
bc self-pity is just a black hole.
Did you ever consider volunteering for
something to get out of your own head?
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klintmad
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Joined: 26 Oct 2007 Posts: 3
Hi? Posted: 10-26-07 22:38pm
I watch the movie about date move. I don't
know the tittle but it's all about the
fatty woman wanted to be loved and I like
it. try to watch that. hallow hal, by
black jack.