I can relate, but in a different way. When I did my university I finished my Master's as one of the top of the class, and I was quite proud of it. I went on to do my PhD but dropped out partly because I started having ideas that the university was the work of the devil, and partly because I was so ambitious and original that the program seemed stupid, too traditional and not worth doing. After I had my episode I dulled down a lot and I'm not as smart anymore. However, I still have interesting ideas that I jot down (I have a whole notebook of them) - they're ideas for articles and books. I never really follow an idea straight to finish - usually my sickness gets in the way. My ambition has remained with me, but my abilities have decreased significantly. It's hard living without great achievements.

This is for both of you and everyone in general......Why don't you just try taking these grandiose ideas and breaking them down into really small, more attainable goals? It will help you to aknowledge the fact that you have these aspirations, and also organize them into a reasonable way to acheive them, and give you the sense that you are actually making progress.

You'd have to do it in a way that best fit your specific goals, but say you want to write a book on some major physics breakthrough. You could start by trying to fill a small notepad sized sheet (like 3 by 5) of an idea every day, just a second every day to jot down a thought. Just jot down an idea or two, and once you have a lot of these little notepad sheets, start organizing them into categories. Once they are into categories, and you have enough, take a category and write a page. Once you have a few pages, start organizing the pages into a chapter. Etc....

With such a broad goal, it's really easy for anyone to get overwhelmed. If you purposely break it up into tiny little goals that you can accomplish every day, it might really help.

Of course, getting treatment for whatever may be holding you back wouldn't hurt either (if, Dorgus, it turns out that you do suffer from bipolar)

Your not so different from alot of posters on this board, although they don't realize it's a delusion.

Anyways...sorry...

You have a lot of insight. You've solved the first problem on your own. Are you diagnosed with anything? Can you talk about some of the manic episodes you experience? The depression?

Are you talking to a professional? They may be able to help you out on a regular basis.

I had a serious break with reality about 23 years ago while I was a university student. Like all of my psychotic episodes since then, this break was preceded by a period of manic euphoria and grandiose delusions. Yes, I get depressed too. When I'm depressed I don't have psychotic symptoms but I spend most of my time in bed.
Since my initial breakdown, I have been seeing a psychiatrist regularly. Furthermore, family members live close by and monitor my condition. My diagnosis is "schizoaffective disorder", so I sort of have a mixture of schizophrenic and bipolar symptoms.

Is therapy a part of your treatment at all? Sounds like a therapist might be able to help you deal with the emotional side of things.

It seems like you have a good support system in place. And you have insight into your illness. You are doing well.

Take it one day at a time, man. What are some of your goals in life?

But I thought that being a genius wasn't a good thing, they always end up killing themselves or something of that nature, I wouldn't bother feeling bad if you aren't one. Besides, there isn't a whole lot to know here.

Malarchy I tell you!

Let me pose a question. What if a person reached the age of 46 and was actually an undiagnosed schizophrenic? This person actually had schizophrenia for over 25 years; but never was "treated" because they never had to see a doctor ? The person was able to go through life "undetected" because most of their sypmtoms were "mental" with some tactile but nothing really "bad" enough. The mental symptoms were hallucinatory but they kept them all to themself.
What sould this person do if suddenly someone did notice something different.