Am I Bi-polar, Or Is It All In My Head? Posted: 10-24-07 18:26pm
I think I may be being stupid, but I don't
know. I've been acting weird for about 3
years now ever since my parents got
divorced. I've had this horrible temper
that's gotten me into so much trouble and
I'm just so moody all the time. About
every other day my attitude is different.
I'm so freaking happy and I feel like I'm
on top of the world and I just have the
biggest ego and then the next day, I feel
so depressed and I hurt so much. For NO
reason at all. I'll basically think back
to something that happened forever ago and
just hate myself and feel so bad. I'll cry
myself to sleep every so often. I've tried
telling my mom that I think I'm bi-polar
and she just laughs and says "No, you're
not! Don't be stupid!" And it's
embarassing telling her that I think that,
sometimes I just want to know if something
is wrong with me. And if I'm not bi-polar
or anything, then what IS wrong? Why do I
act like this? I want to go to a doctor,
but I doubt my mom would take me. I'm
scared. I wish I had an answer about it.
I've tried these online questionaires
(which I know aren't always right.) and
they've all said that I'm bi-polar and I
should go see a doctor. I have the worst
temper in the world and if one thing makes
me mad, I want to throw something at the
wall. It doesn't even matter what it is.
If a friend tells me something I don't
like, I get upset or depressed over it. I
used to cut myself, which I now realize
was a stupid thing to do. :[ My mom found
out and yelled at me over it and I felt so
bad. I told her I wanted to see a
psychiatrist or something and she said,
"You don't need to, all you need to talk
to is me!" and I don't know how to talk to
her about stuff that depresses me. She
never wants to talk to me much anyways.
I'm so worried about myself. I've thought
about committing suicide and then the next
minute I think that thinking about it is
the dumbest thing ever and then the next
day I'm thinking about it again.. I really
shouldn't. I'm very pretty.. I have a lot
of friends who love me, my family loves
me, I make good grades. What is my
problem? I get too easily stressed out and
I can't concentrate on one thing at a
time. I have these frequent times where I
start telling a story and I end up talking
so fast that I slurr my words and no one
understands what I'm saying. I get so
hyper naturally and I feel so obnoxious
all the time. I don't know what to do.
I'm 16-years-old, by the way. :[
Please give me your full opinion. :/
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mellb
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Oct 2007 Posts: 1
You Know What. Posted: 10-24-07 19:48pm
I feel exactly the same way. I've been
taking those online tests, I know they're
not accurate or anything, but all of them
have said I have some Bipolar Disorder or
Manic Depression. I'd just watched The
Secret Life of the Manic Depressive online
and I found that I was agreeing with a lot
of the things they said, but it all seems
so normal to me. Other people, like my
family, have pointed out that my attitude
changes, i.e. I'm very hyperactive one day
and the next I can't talk to anyone for
more than five minutes without wanting to
ram their heads against the wall.
I don't want to tell anyone though because
I don't quite fancy the idea of my dad
telling me not to be so stupid or asking
me to tell him about it, or saying that
it's all just in my head. I've been
feeling really down lately, thinking that
I might have it.
Sorry I couldn't help, but at least we
both know someone else is going through
the same thing.
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abnrmlmind
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 55
Once Again.. Posted: 10-24-07 21:25pm
try reading other posts ive replied to
this once already if your 16 its possible
your just having a rough time through
puberty and/or depression. its hard to pin
point you have bpd at your age because of
how in the teenage stage your body is
developing and your mind is too. thus
causing confusion, anger, immaturity, and
depression. once you hit your 20's your
frontal lobe is more developed and you
become more mature. therefore you become
calm and think more logically and stop
acting on impulses. usually if bpd or
schizophrenia runs in your family theres a
chance you have it also, its believed that
its genetically passed on. You sound like
the common teenager. perhaps practice in
selfcontrol and anger management will do
you good or just time and age.
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daffodil67
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Nov 2007 Posts: 54 Location: , midsouth, usa (think presidential pair)
Posted: 11-02-07 07:25am
Gosh, I agree with the previosu poster
that so much is changing in the adolescent
mind...however, i DO think these kids may
have a problem. Is there a school
counselor you can talk to?? I needed help
as a teen and didn't get it, but that was
kind of back in teh dark ages, and my
parents were kind of like the first girl's
mother.
IF you feel like you are going to hurt
yourself, TELL SOEMONE. An adult. Maybe
you ahve a sympathetic aunt or someone
like that. There are also hotlines for
people in distress if you absolutely can't
get evaluated and get to one of those
danger points. Seriously.
My feeling is that I would rather be over
cautious with teens who feel their parents
are nto listenign to their fears of having
a serious illness--I mean on a chat board
when we don't really know them.
Also, maybe you two can buddy up and keep
track of one another online, make sure you
each are doing ok. there are LOTS of these
boards, some more sym,pathestic and
knoweldgeable than others. I find this
one has so many posts by family members
and stuf...it's not quite the same as the
ones where it's jsut FOR people with
problems.
