Hi, im 14 and Ive been through alot of things in my life...

These are the things that make me feel soo depressed:

*Ive been in a mental health unit (an inpatient) for a year.

*I dont have anyone I can open up too.

*I have to deal with my problems all on my own and its my fault cos I cant tell ppl how i really feel, cos im really shy.

*I feel ashamed of who i am, I dont have many freinds, Im an fool.

*My family hates me and im serious. they tell me that nearly every day.

*Im sooo very lonely, no one would understand me.

*I think about suicide nearly everyday of my life. not the thing ppl my age should be thinking about.

*I isolate myself in my house. only go out to the shops with my mum.

*Ive never had a bf.

*I need someone I can rely on but Ive never found that person.

and all my usual probs too. like the probs everyone who is normal has.
i dont know what to do. I have a therapist but i just cant tell her the things i really am desperate to let out. the things ive never told anyone-about my depression.

I need some advice about how i should handle my depression.
please reply.