I'm 18 years old, I'll be 19 in January. I'm at university studying engineering, with my boyfriend of 14 months. We've been having sex for about 4 months, as we had a long distance relationship beforehand.
I've been on birth control since I was 16, and started having sex at the same time. I found out last weekend that I was pregnant and I know I'm not ready to have this child. I don't know how this happened and I've been so scared. I'm a 40 hour car ride away from my home and friends and I haven't told my parents, and my boyfriend hasn't told his. As soon as we found out we called an abortion clinic and set up an appointment but since all I can think about is the child that's growing inside me.
I never wanted kids, especially not this early, but as I'm sure many of you know, it's so much different when it's yours and even though I'm only 4 weeks pregnant, I could tell before I took the test. I want to keep the baby and I'm not sure if that's just hormones or what, but it's my first child and the sense of responsibility I feel is overwhelming. My boyfriend and I love each other, but if I chose to keep this child his parents will probably force him to stop seeing me. And even if they don't I am lost as to how I will raise it. I've thought about adoption and wonder if that's really best for the child and what the process is like.
I've always been pro-choice, it's just really hard to think about killing someone inside of you. I've just looking for some advice and if any of you have done any of these options, I want to know what it was like. Thanks.