i dont know what to say, i dont know anything anymore. i dont know who i am or why i am here. i always feel sad and i cant get away from it. when people are around i try to act happy but it never works the people always see through it. my grades have been falling and i cant get this feeling in my head and my heart that all i can do now is die, kill myself. im afriad to get help and my parents would never understand, they always need to be happy thy just wouldnt accept it if i told them i was sad allthis time. im always looking for something i sit down to play a game on the computer (which i used to really like) but i sit down and just cant play my feelings and my body tell me to go looking for something that i dont know what it is. i just want to lay down and die all the time

im 16 year old girl and live in australia