Im going to admit that prior to my current relationship i had the perfect relationship the girl loved me i was her first everything was going smooth until i decided to mess everything up by cheating on her. it wasnt intentional it just kind of happend. well i broke up with her for this girl and its ben hell ever since a year and a half of hell the only positive thing about the relationship is that i have my 1 month old daughter. I really dont want to be dating this girl but she controlled me so much that i went from driving a jaguar s type to driving a beat up conversion van i went from working at a bank to working at a restaurant. she got so out of hand that she cost me so many jobs by making scenes and flipping out and has kicked me out numerous times. I had an apt before i met her and had it up until a bout 2 months ago because she got me evicted by breaking in threw a window and destroying property that didnt belong to me while she was 8 months pregnant. on top of that basically used me for everything she could have i take care of her 3 year old son because the father isnt around and she drained me financially. I live with her unfortunalty but am very un happy and dont have the finances to move out. i guess what im trying to get at is the past couple months ive been thinking about my ex who i broke up with for the current girl. and ive noticed alot more things that remind me of her and all the fun we had together. I know i messed it all up by what i did but honestly she was the only girl i ever loved and im just finding that out more and more as time goes on. are these thoughts wrong? should i try and talk to her again? i really miss her and my life i had with her. what should i do im so unhappy and in sucha predicament where i honestly dont know what to do anymore