I dont even know where to begin with this. About 2 1/2 years ago I met this guy at work..nothing happened..I went to college for my freshman year, he finished his senior year in h.s. Came back that summer...and we met again, and sparks flew...we started dating exclusively but neither of us would put a title there bc we didn't know what the other wanted..well, i was leaving again for college soon so we wanted to figure out what we were exactly. We decided to go through with a long distance relationship. Before I left for college I ended up giving it up to him. I've never been with any other guy. He was just different. 8 months of college and we're still goin strong. We've been dating 16 months yesterday and recently things have gone downhill. About a month ago I caught him in a lie that I wished I'd never found. He was texting some girl who he said was "his sisters friend" and the text messages were out of line. I called him out on it..then called him out on his lie..it wasn't his sisters friend. He admitted it was a girl from work and came clean and apologized..he was in tears because he felt bad about it. He hadn't cheated on me, and swore he never would (since thats the reason his last relationship ended..the girl cheating on him). We talked things out..and I truly believe things would be fine, but theres still this parania in the back of my mind you know? So tonight..I grabbed his phone and found another outbox text message to a random number...I saved it to my phone for later and questioned him about it...he got pissed and said he was tired of me being all up in his caca,and went to bed..leaving me crying and upset. Well...I texted the number and get a call back...its another girl from his work. We talked..she said they were just acquaintances but he had tried to take it further though she wasn't interested. He's been asking her to chill and watch movies and hang out, when she couldn't he would text back sayin "well you'll have to make it up to me some other time then"...she said she saw his "promise ring" i gave him and asked if he was married...he said "no, i'm too young to be married"..."is it from your girlfriend"..."no i dont have a girlfriend"....well..the first girl..i just wanted to believe was a prostitute who was bullshitting me..this is the second time this is happening to me...i know what I SHOULD do...i should dump this loser and get over it right? easier said than done being that he's the guy I lost my virginity to and my first love. I hasn't cheated on me...but the fact that he's being flirty and trying to hang out with other girls and being all secretive about it drives me INSANE...as pathetic as it sounds..i'm scared to loose him...he's all i've known and i dont know what i'd do without him...i dont know what to do....sorry its SO long