I took Paxil maybe 7-8 months ago and remember it being a very weird period of time for me. I don't know if it worked very well, because I still had panic attacks and whatnot. But at the same time, I was very depressed and smoking heavy amounts of marijuana, as well as doing a variety of benzodiazepines for recreational use. So I can't say that Paxil was a negative or positive experience for me since there were so many other factors affecting its use.

I just remember having somewhat a lack of feelings or emotions, maybe it was the Paxil or maybe it was just me during that time of my life with everything that was going on. I remember having some extremely weird dreams while on Paxil. I had very heavy sleep which was hard to wake up out of and the dreams were almost lucid, as if I knew what was going on in them and had control over my actions.

Since then, I was heavily depressed. Eventually I met a girl who changed my life, I soon started becoming less and less depressed. I was a completely changed person, even quitting weed completely.

Long story short, I broke up with this girl recently, which was really hard for me to deal with since I had never been in love with a girl before. This didn't bother me too much though. But since then, it feels like things are just getting worse in other aspects of my life. I'm feeling very irritated about everything again and even started smoking pot again, but not nearly as much as I used to. I'd say about 1-2 times a week. I'm getting depressed again, I don't talk to my family the same way. I'm much more quiet than before and I don't know whats wrong.

I went to my doctor and got a prescription for Paxil again. I will be taking 20mg everyday and just took my first dose today. I was just wondering if anyone has any positive experiences with Paxil? I used to be strongly against antidepressents, especially Paxil, but at this point I feel like maybe it will work since things have changed since my last experience.