Hi...just to let you know about myself:
-I am 18 years old
-My testicles and penis have not developed
fully
-2% of my sperms are alive
-I have no erections, only weak soft ones
-My body is grotesquely out of proportion
Now after all these problems, I will never
date or love a woman. You must understand
why...If I am cured god blessing...I will
date and adopt...if not...then I will
never date but I will still adopt...I have
never touched a girl sexually or in a
loving manner...
Now my problem is clear and on top due to
my hormones I have masculine and feminine
brain...which is more depressing...I feel
trapped in between...
Now due to my hormones I have a rare
condition which makes me want to nurture
and love children, more so than a
woman...(Please I am here to only hear
from caring, passionate, open minded and
logical people...I do not want traditional
narrow minded people telling me a man
cannot nurture children).
I am very good with kids, on my street
there are children, boys and girls, and I
talk to them and play with them. I am very
relaxed and an open person, and their
parents know me...of course who will be
stupid enough to go with a random child
lol...
Anyhow, considering my problems what else
can I do in life? I know what I can do:
-Work in my education (in hope I can
provide financial support for my adopted
kids...)
-Training (boxing and swordsmanship) to
help pass time
-Find a logical step for people like me to
help them and to scrutinise the NHS for
poor doctors and caring...(it is about
time the doctors get some criticism)
-And to fight an evil ideology that is
spreading on this world...
This is my life...if I am not cured...
Now I want people to realsie me and who I
am, and I do not want to hear perverted
sick jokes...
I want to adopt 2-3 girls...so I can love
them and bring them happiness...I have so
many plans on how to raise them, in a fun
and creative way...so they can see me as a
friend, a father and a mother. It is a
sweet relationship, of a father and
daughter...any man here knows what I
mean?
I am an Indian, but I want to adopt white
girls. Please do not fall to perverted
talks as the West is very sexist towards
man...in a variety of ways...I am sick and
tired of a man being called a paedophile
for wanting to nurture for children...but
when it is a woman this never happens...it
is the 21st century...women are having
thier equalities...now give us men
some...My sister tells me it is odd...the
foolish brain of an average human being is
sick...If I am not cured and I cannot
adopt...I do not really see myself worthy
of living...I am in a point of no
return...and I swear death is calling
me...I want happiness...either it be a
woman...or by the love of my adopted
children...
I want to show the break of traditionalism
and also help impose more diversity by
this...(adopting white girls)
On top, I find children cute...I prefer
girls more so than boys, but we all have
our choices (please there are people who
pray it is a boy or pray it is a girl when
a child is in the mother's womb)...do not
say this is perverted please...I am sick
of this narrow minded thought...
I am not sure what I want to do if I could
adopt, here is a mini-dream for me to
think on away from my depression and
miserable life:
-3 girls
-2 girls
-or one girl and one boy
-or 2 girls and one boy
Now I know I have to prove myself over the
years in terms of:
-Financial
-Schedule
-Natural mother care methods/knowledge...
-Housing/environment
-Personality
-And most of all personal and professional
approval i.e. family and work experience
with evidence and contacts to all whom
recommend me.
Now what I mean by work experience is:
-Go to primary/elementary schools and work
there voluntarily,
-Go to care homes voluntarily and work,
-Go to orphanges
-Within all of this engage in activities
with the children
-Foster some children within my younger
years (once approved)
-Eventually adopt...
But this will start this year, I am 18 and
I will hope that I can prove myself over
the decade...I will inform to all the work
experience I do...and thus make sure I get
contact details and certificates to add to
my personal profile...
Now this work experience is not work...it
is only the professional term...I love
children unconditionally...my heart
ponders with joy when I see girls and
boys...so cute...and innocent...sometimes
I cry due to my problems...having children
will take rid of my miseries...I literally
love kids...I mean to a caring point...I
have like 7 kids playing with me (on the
street > a very close society) and I
know perfectly well how to control them
and love them...they love me...so
sweet...and their mothers mentioned they
see me as an idol...wow makes me feel
special
If I cannot have the love of a woman...I
would honorably sacrifice my life for
adoptive daughters...so that when they
grow to being young women...they can hug
me and say they are proud of me...
Dam I have so many nurting, educational,
games, adventurous, food experimentation
etc etc etc etc....ideas.
I know I have to prove myself and this
will be hard work.
Now all I am here for is, for advice,
guidance, rules etc. It helps as a
starting point...
I have been straight to the point...I
cannot waste my time writing essays on my
problems...I have written and researched
consisting of over 120 pages of notes...
Please someone...guide me....
