or we can share.... i just want to compare

Frankly I think the definition of Bipolar is totally open ended. If you think about all the spheres of the mind, and then there is this one little catagorization of it, "Bipolar"?!?

I would, if I were you essentuate on the positive. You sound like you could!

Do what you can with what you''ve got!

We've all got a history to tell! Right?

That, is what we all have to get past!!!

I would personally love to read your "ramblings".

I don't have anything to share, and I'm not bp, but I am very interested.

My bipolar husband is an amazing poet & prose writer. I'm sure your "ramblings" are perfectly coherent and I'm sure they're well thought out. Should you care to forward something in a PM, that's groovy.

BYD

Im having troubles with the pm my aol instant messanger s/n is abnrmlmind and i have to add you to my buddy list for you to be able to see me... either post it or try and pm me but i cant promise ill get the pm

Why not just post them on the forum? You might get more feedback that way.

some of its personal and some of it is something i would not like to brodcast

that and i dont think that this is really the right place...

why do i bother..........

dragged into the deepest feeling
only to let go
help me find my way
cause im so alone so alone...alone
long gone
inside these weak bones
feel the beating of my heart
knowing its there
its pulling me apart
my mouth has surrendered
to the empty thoughts in mind
the only thing against me
happens to be father time
but what if tomorrow never arrives
that is what keeps me up at night
the simpathy of love is keeping me alive
am i the only one living in a strive
tears fall down my face in the dark
because no one should see me cry
im looking for the answers
all i find are lies
shot down by my decisions
kept back and cover my eyes
is this punishment
for the way i live my life

THERE & NO ONE STEAL IT

Thanks for posting that Abn. I reread it a few times. Sadly I have no experiences of my own to share, but I can see a lot of myself in what you write.

i am influenced by my surroundings
drowned by my thoughts and feelings
i am deafened by my mind
my future still awaits me
and my past,it has been left behind
the world has grown to hate me
its seems life is starting to unwind

you were someone i once knew
now i dont know whats got into you

your thoughts are all in a jumble and just out of place
and you constantly have a confused look on your face

it nothing
you'll reply
but obviously
thats just a lie

cast down upon this hollow heart and notice we are all in the dark

HIPPIE! be positive be positive be positive, the world is what you make of it. youre theory is about as bad as stephen hawkings on black holes. i manage just fine and i make do with whats going on. i just hate TRYING TO UNDERSTAND OTHERS

my theory is you know nothing.... and why did you even post, it has nothing really to do with what i was talking about. "Frankly I think the definition of Bipolar is totally open ended." good job sherlock im sure no one with a phd realized that and you'll be the next nobel prize winner. "catagorization" what are you talking about.."spheres of the mind" its our way of trying to fix things. everything in life is catagorized. i simple just think.. 1 you definitly dont have bpd 2 you believe in taking vitamins eating great and you probably have a hybrid if you can afford it.

do not HELP when it is not asked do not COMMENT when not needed and when you do comment make sure its more inspirational and down to earth

out of all the people that are here...... i made it so anyone can contact me now abnrmlmind on AIM not sure how many are up at the moment but im going through a NO sleep stage. so i should be there

obsessive compulsive disoriented YOU CANT FEEL THE HATE THAT IT BRINGS. ALL THE PRESSURE. WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY. confused TAKE IT ALL AWAY. MY MIND IS LOCKED IN OVERTIME. manic COME DOWN. warm blood I DIDNT MIND. THINGS ARENT GREAT. iTS ALL THE THINGS IN MY BRAIN THAT BRINGS OUT MY VIOLENT SIDE. ITS MESSIN WITH MY HEAD. IT JUST ISNT THE SAME. paranoid DOWN WITH IT ALL. TAKE IT ALL OUT. WALK IT OFF. TOO LONELY NOW. depressed ALL THE CONSEQUENCE. IM LEFT ALONE. anGEr IM THE NEW REVOLUTION BECAUSE IM SO GREEDY. HERES WHATS NOT UNDERSTANDING. SCREAMING IN SILENCE. LEAVE ME BE LET ME BLEED. IVE FIGURED OUT WHAT IT IS. tHE CHOICE IS MINE. mINE ALONE. I NEVER WANTED IT TO HAPPEN I JUST WANTED TO BE EVERYTHING. wATCH THEM BLEED BLEED MOTHER BLEED. YOU DEMENTED DEMENTED DEMENTED DEMENTED . sadated SEIZE the MOMENT AND KILL IT KILL IT GOOD. HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE
ME HATE ME HATE ME. yOU WOULD BUILD ME UP AND LET ME DOWN CHEW ME UP AND SPIT ME OUT AND IM JUST WONDERING SON OF A mY MIND JUST COLLASPED sCREAMING AGONIZING FEELING EVEEERY LITTLE EMOTION FEED BACK ISNT POSSIBLE. ITS SO DOWN AND IT WONT SHAKE. ssee ME IM SO SCARY. I HAD NOTHING NOTHIING AT ALL I DONT FEEL GOOD I DONT FEEL IT ANYMORE

anti depressants and bpd i edited a lot