I am bipolar rapid cycler, diagnosed Feb 2004. Before I was diagnosed, I started taking depo provera as a birth control method. I have been on depo provera for about 5 years. I take lamotrigine(mood stabilizer) 300mg, seroquel (anti-psychotic and used to treat bipolar) 200mg, wellbutrin (anti-depressant) 450mg, clonazepam (anti-anxiety, helps with insomnia) 2mg.
I met my boyfriend, and he wants children, something I never wanted. My boyfriend changed my mind, and I am grateful...or am I?
I was supposed to get my shot of depo a month ago and I didn't because we decided (along with a specialist) to come off of depo. So I have been 4 months without the shot.
I have never been so moody in my entire life, even before I went on bipolar medication.
I have been very depressed, impulsive, angry all the time it seems, putting a lot of blame on my poor boyfriend (who is very supportive). I have been crying for no reason, or crying about something stupid. It seems I am out of it emotionally.
So my question is, what is causing this?? Is it the depo and lack of estrogen, or my bipolar disorder getting worse?
What I have done so far, is tried to keep track of my moods, and I have also contacted both specialists (psychiatrist and gynecologist) regarding the matter.
Please let me know if you have any ideas or advice.
Thank you
-Brandi
London Ontario Canada