Awwwww
You'll get over your ex, I'm sure.
And getting good marks might not make you happier but it'll help you get a good job, so keep at it.
How often do you see your family?

oh eiri im so sorry youre going through this
its amazeing you know your such a strong smart girl... i wish i knew half of what you know

youre a great person dont you forget that
and im here to help anytime ok?

Hardly EVER.

Long story short, I'd been slowly cutting myself off from them ever since I started college. I moved into a house in the college town between by sophomore and junior year and didn't seem much of them. Between my junior and senior year (last year) they moved down to Florida, and I again didn't see much of them. Even though I was the one pushing them away, I felt abandoned. Anyway, I fraked up serious big-time and finally got my head and heart back together over the summer after they demanded me to visit them.

It's like I got a world of love back that I'd been pushing away because I knew I was doing the wrong things. I got so much back... and now I'm alone in NY again. I seriously feel more alone than I did my freshman year!!

I did call my parents last night and we talked and I felt better afterwards. Then I posted the above message cause I got all depressed again. So going to bed, I played the "I am thankful" game.

You simply start listing things you're thankful for.

"I am thankful... that I don't have huge bleeding sores all over my body." ---> sometimes they're pretty dumb.

"I am thankful I did well on my test."

On and on. It really works for me a lot. Every time your mind drifts to something depressing, you think of something else you're thankful for.

Thanks ^_^u Even the smart people mess up you know? I seem smart but I'm sometimes not. I don't have a lot of organization or self-discipline.

I know you don't like me or psychology, but if this is an ongoing thing you may get some benefit from talking to a professional. Most college campuses offer free mental health services. Best wishes...

Eiri, you are one of the strongest people I have known here. I TOTALLY understand what you are going through. The bright side of all of this is, this is only temporary. You are so intelligent and communications skills are off the chart. Your advice to others is so incredibly helpful and honest. I ma thnkful for people like you...who give a rats ass to even come here to try to help others. You have a huge heart. It took me a very long time to realize my family and freinds come first.....I lost so many years and also have lost special people (my dad last year, step-mom 3 years ago, grandparents and good friends...........all because I alienated myself. Your borther is doing a very honorable thing. If this is what he chose, you have to let he guilt go and just be his hackup. I for one am thanful to have such an honorable young man inlisted in order for me to have freedom........I miss my family too.....thats one reason I come here so much.....I feel as though so many of you are like family. I hope you will see how special you are and get out of this slump......GIVING YOU A BIG HUG!

Thanks... I do know one reason why I feel so down is because... I haven't been writing to my brother when I should have been the whole time! It's horrible that I haven't. So I know once I manage to send a letter I'll be okay. Stupid mail closes at 4 pm though, and my procrastination is the reason for all of that.

Thank you so much :} I am so proud of my brother and a little jealous too! I'm considering going in myself after I graduate. I just don't want to be a burden on anyone, it's almost an obsession. I don't want to have to ask for help and I don't like being wrong. I don't like quitting. But then again I have NO self-control.

Eiri...you no self control..you ?? I too am not a quitter..except cigarettes.... I hate being wrong, but have learned to admit when i am. I am human...just as you are. Sometimes things are beyond our control and we have no alternative but to seek help.....its human and called being stuborn. I should know I have been that way for 50 years.....Hardheaded and set in my ways. But from all hte post I have readfrom you, the one thing I do know about you is you have control over your life. Sit your ass down and write your borther a letter. Explain ot him how you have been feelign and be honest. When you get finished and address/stamp it, I promise you will feel so much better. And for God sake, end the letter with I LOVE YOU...............I tell everyone this in case its the last time I ever see them.....it gets pretty bad when At& T calls to see if you are happy with the service and you tell the lady I LVOE YOU before you hang up! Got your back GIRLFRIEND!

XD Again, thanks. I really don't have much self-discipline. I must force myself to go to class. My writing is going to be a bit funny right now, as I just finished the first book of Maus and I tend to take on accents and ways of writing. I am using some discipline this weekend though, and not going camping! I'm staying and doing work instead. So much work to do lol.

I'm sorry you've been feeling down lately, Eiri if you ever get lonely or just feel like randomly ranting/chatting you can always PM me. I hope this weekend goes well for you sweetie!

You got that letter written yet? Its bedtime! Hope you sleep well and feel better tomorrow! Night Night.........HUGS

Awweee Tina .... you'll be ok soon ... everyone gets down feelings and feeling sorry for yourself .... no matter who we are, we all do it ... and we all get thru it .... are you missing your Ex,or the comfort and attention another person, especially a man can give? ... I'm not saying go and get yourself a man, it's just that us women love to be loved ... We love you in here, and you'll never be alone, but it can't replace the tender touch from a partner ... You'll be ok soon, and if playing the 'thankful game' helps a little, then do it ... well I thank YOU for all the help you've given us in the past, the present and the future, you are a strong lady .. Don't you ever forget that ... BIG (((((((HHHUUGGGGGSSSSS))))))))) from across the 'Pond'

^^ Thank you so much guys ^^

I bought 6 cards I'm going to send my brother, and I'm going to say how proud I am of him all over them!

I got asked out on a date last night O.o Uuuuunfortunately the lad is neither attractive nor my type. A little too self-pitying for my taste, and so I had to say no. I wasn't surprised though, with how we've been chatting lately. I guess that can be termed as flirting? I didn't consider it such, but... let's just say I'm very open in real life about myself and my body and sex!

oooo tina's got a boyyyyyyfriend

Eeewww, noooo XD He's icky Nice guy, but.... NO. lol.

you can take travis for a few days lol

Lol. I'm fine being single, really. I miss the physical and mental aspect of a relationship, but right now I'd be very strange to date. I'm in "Powerful, sexy feminist" mood right now. I feel very womanly, and it's because I've been dressing nice every day of the week. I'm just obnoxiously assertive.

your a strong girl like i said before
you dont need no man to be happy
its hard because you miss the good parts of a relationship which is understandable
but remember YOU have to come first
you hav the power to make yourself more happy than any man could

keep dressing nice and cherish the time you have with yourself
have fun with your life
be strong
be powerful and show all those people out there that the single life IS fun...