New Here, Should I Get Help And What Kind??? Long Posted: 10-04-07 12:17pm
Hey my name is Sarah I am 26 and the
mother of five gorgeous girls, all under
the age of 5...I am married and my husband
is deployed until Aug 08'. I had an
eating disorder, specifically bulimia
since 14, but did go into periods of not
eating for a few months or so.
Anyways, fast forward to where I am at
right now. Since my husband left, I have
fallen back I think into the traps and the
security eating disorders bring. I have
not purged though, but I feel I may be
slipping into anorexia. Since he left in
July specifically July 27 I have lost 30
lbs.....I was heavier from having a baby,
so I am in a good bmi category now, but
the weight seems to be coming off faster
the deeper I get sucked in. At first I
was eating modestly, excersising an hour a
day and having a little ice cream at
night.......then a few weeks pass and I
start skipping the ice cream and go to
that luigi's ice.....then a couple weeks
pass and I up my cardio about 20 min a
day.......also up my weight training to
more exercises........Now I am doing about
2 hours cardio, weight training on some
type of my body everyday and starting to
write down what I eat.......I eat below
what I should be eating, I guess I won't
really post it here, but I should eat alot
more especially with all of the
exercising.
Some days I see myself at my "true"
weight, meaning I have lost alot, and
sometimes I see myself at the weight I
know I'm not at. I weigh myself everyday
and if I lose I am happy and proud, if I'm
the same or gain I'm sad, and will
continue to weigh myself all day long,
even though I know weights can fluctuate.
I guess I had to get this off my chest so
to speak and try to "reach" out for
help.......my weight loss goal is 5 pounds
away and now I have noticed I'm increasing
the goal to 10 lbs....I'm not sure if I'll
ever stop.....
Would you recommend I see a counselor that
specifies in Eating Disorders? Or can I
see anyone? Do you think I am getting a
little obsessive? I know I am, but I
guess I am not seeing as clearly as
someone who is reading this....sorry so
long and thanks
Are you a military wife? pretty sure you
are by the sounds of it i am as well, I
would first contact your primary care dr,
and tell them all this and they can
evaluate you and then give you a reference
toa psychologist in your area. military
drs suck with any of that so it would be
better to get a referral to an offbase
place. To talk to a counselor etc. I know
it is hard with kids and the husband being
gone and everything. My husband is
deployed as well, he left july 24th. But
his deployment isnt quite as long. But
like when theyre over there they end up
coming back skinnier and stuff and im
afraid of becoming this big flat blob.
Lately ive been cutting my calorie intake
in half and stuff. Its like im jsut sooo
tired of being fat. I have 2 kids myself
ages 2 and 9 mths old. Its gonna be hard
with 5 kids though. If you want to you can
always PM me. if you h ave yahoo or aim
you can PM me with your names on there and
i can talk to u on there if you like, I
was anorexic and bulimic for 5 yrs and i
was in therapy end of 03 and 04. I never
finished therapy i just stopped going
because i went to live with my sister. But
im sure if you actually go and stuff and
folllow through it will help alot.
depending on your situation they may see
you once a week or once every other week
or once a month it just depends. i went
once a week i had to pay a $25 copay going
off base but its well worth it. Military
drs i dont think are as experienced in any
of it.
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sarahj26
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Oct 2007 Posts: 3
Posted: 10-04-07 14:12pm
Yes, he is in the Army, but in the
National Guard, so I don't have to deal
with Military Dr.......I fell back into
this because of the stress, you know I
don't have to think about him being gone
if I'm obsessed with exercise, calories
and food, that is my thinking of why at
least. I know I'm into it already. I
will just have to call around and see who
takes tricare. I will PM you
later...Thanks again!
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Hi Sarah Posted: 10-05-07 02:48am
Hello,
in first place u should be proud of
urself. U have 5 kids, u get along with
all necessery care and manage to take look
after ur body shape. congrats!!! u must be
a very energic and active woman. U could
use this energy in some other directions,
like home businness or what ever
interesting job. all is good, there is
nothing bad in spending time on yourself,
i guess u are obsessed with spending so
much time on thinking of urself, am i
right? u miss ur man but instead of crying
u do strengthen ur body, thats not bad. u
dont need to dramatise the situation, and
get new stress form it.
great if u see a specialist and figure out
a healthy eating plan. ED is a dangerous
thing, earlier u battle it, better for u.
great if u involve urself in a business
or social life, peace on earth, unti war
and any other organisation would be glad
to welcome a new active member, as u are
wish u harmony, balance, and peace
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sarahj26
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Oct 2007 Posts: 3
Re: Hi Sarah Posted: 10-05-07 08:59am
bibisim
wrote:
Hello,
in first place u should be proud of
urself. U have 5 kids, u get along with
all necessery care and manage to take look
after ur body shape. congrats!!! u must be
a very energic and active woman. U could
use this energy in some other directions,
like home businness or what ever
interesting job. all is good, there is
nothing bad in spending time on yourself,
i guess u are obsessed with spending so
much time on thinking of urself, am i
right? u miss ur man but instead of crying
u do strengthen ur body, thats not bad. u
dont need to dramatise the situation, and
get new stress form it.
great if u see a specialist and figure out
a healthy eating plan. ED is a dangerous
thing, earlier u battle it, better for u.
great if u involve urself in a business
or social life, peace on earth, unti war
and any other organisation would be glad
to welcome a new active member, as u are
wish u harmony, balance, and
peace
Thanks, I'm not sure what to think of this
post.......I don't think I am dramatising
the situation though. In fact I talked to
a Therapist last night and she wants me to
go to the Dr. to make sure I am medically
stable today, from my dramatic weight
loss, it has actually been over 30lbs. so
I don't think I am overreacting at all.
She is going to adjust her schedule so
they can start working with me on Monday.
Thank for the response though, I'm glad
I'm getting help.....and I don't think
I'll be joining any anti war
movement...hahahaha!