Last year, I was in a horrible state of mind. My father had passed away and the relationship with the girl I had been dating for 4 years fell apart. I am currently 21 years old. I was in a band playing music and going around on tour and such, and I started smoking marijuana daily. For about a year straight I'm not sure that there was more than a handful of days I hadn't done that. I also experimented seldomly with other drugs. I am now currently back in college, and have collected my life again. I'm taking it serious, took classes over the summer and got A's and now I am in the middle of this semester and doing perfect in all of my classes. My household is odd, I live with my sister and mother. My sister is weird in the way that no matter what I do, she always tries to make things up or make it horrible in the eyes of my mother so she gets upset with me. Ever since my father died, my mother hasn't really been too open. So I feel stuck in this house with no one really to talk to and to share that family type of love with. During the day, at random times, my mind will feel as if I'm looking through a veil. The world seems to cease to exist and I honestly feel as if everything is fake; vision, hearing, touch, and even being alive. I get myself caught up in the idea of how we are biological entities and understand that I am one and do not understand how this reality comes from such weird means of life. I cannot get my mind off of things like this and no matter what I do my mind is always trying to find the answers to everything. It is in this feeling of disconnection with reality and the fear of what I am that I lose it. Out of nowhere I feel like I'm dying and that nothing is right. I feel the loss of my father as if I had just found out he died and am reduced to tears. I feel as if the relationships I have in my life are no longer rational, and don't make sense. This psychosis is tearing away at the stability I am trying to find in my life and I just want to know if this is onset by last year, and if it will fade, because every time this disconnection happens it feels just as scary as the time before. Is there anything I can do about this?...