I AM 26 ALMOST 27 FROM MY TEEN YEARS I HAVE BEEN A VERY MOODY PERSON, I WAS 13 WHEN I STARTED FEELING THESE MOOD SWINGS I could'ent CONTROL WHAT I WAS DOING MOST OF THE TIME, SOMETIMES I WANTED TO BE THIS GOOD KID WITH straigt A'S AND SOMETIMES I JUST DONT CARE I WANTED TO BE THE WORST KID WHO WAS SLUTTY AND RUDE AND RUN AWAY ALL THE TIME FOR NO REASON AT ALL.
WHEN I WAS ABOUT 20 I WAS LIVING WITH MY B/F WHO STRESSED ME OUT SO MUCH I TOOK 35 SLEEPING PILLS I TRIED TO KILL MY SELF THEN I TRIED HANGING MY SELF I FINALLY LEFT.
I GOT MARRIED TO SOMEONE ELSE WHEN I WAS 23 HOWEVER IT IS GREAT MOST OF THE3 TIME BUT WHEN THINGS DONT GO MY WAY I GO INTO THESE DARK DEPRESSION AND WHEN I AM ALONE WITH CO WORKERS OR OTHER FRIENDS I TURN INTO THIS TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON I FLIRT I DONT WANT TO BUT IT HAPPENS I CANT CONTROL MY SELF I GET THIS HYPER FEELING LIKE I AM SO SO FULL OF ENERGY AND IT JUST FEELS LIKE IT IS NOT ME LIKE I AM HIGHT I DONT DRINK OR SMOKE BUT THAT IS HOW I FEEL AND I GO OUT OF CONTROL LIKE I DONT CARE I DO RECKLESS STUFF I KNOW I WOULD NEVER DO IF I WAS IN MY RIGHT STATE OF MIND. I CANT SLEEP AT NIGHT MAYBE 3 TO 4 HRS IS GOOD FOR ME AND I GRING MY TEETH ALL THE TIME I CANT SHUT MY MIND DOWN IT IS JUST RACING ALL THE TIME
WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? PLEASE TELL ME
I AM SCARED AND CONFUSED I FEEL I AM RUINING MY WHOLE LIFE AND MY MARRIAGE AND I CANT STOP MYSELF OR NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY I DONT FEEL I AN DO IT ON MY OWN.
PLEASE ADVICE ASAP.