What to Do...............................................??? Posted: 03-25-04 21:15pm
I am not sure why or how to say this but I
feel so stupid to of done it and havnt
done it since. Lately I have been getting
stressed about uni work and that my work
isnt good enough (im a bit of a
perfectionist people tell me) and its yet
again been affecting my eating habits.
Ive been through it many times but have
always had the control from some where to
get through it again but I really hate
eating in front of ppl at the mo and I am
finding it very difficult especially as I
live with 4 girls. Becuase ive slightly
lost control of my eating I was very angry
with myself and I started self harming,
ive never done it b4 and I have only done
it twice now but I did and although I
tried to hide the cuts on my wrists people
noticed but I told them that I fell in
some bushes when a friend and I were
playing around and scratched my arms up
and they belived me. I am now just
affraid that I will do it again because I
had never done it b4 and not really sure
how I even had the guts to hurt myself
like that. I feel nervous even thinking
about it but I think, then again I have
been feeling slightly shaking and slightly
on edge ever since I started taking these
slimming pills. Any advice would be very
much appreciated. Thanx bella.X
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 03-26-04 00:49am
Bella,
you & I have talked before - you have
to realize that your problems didn't just
happen out of the blue & so you won't
be healed out of the blue either. It will
take time, alot of energy, willpower, help
(from friends, professionals etc) &
you will go backwards sometimes.
Uni work will stress you, that is normal,
whether others show it or not, they do
(& are) get stressed (unless of course
they don't care & are happy to
fail!!). My daughter has a very high iq,
is very organized but she is also stressed
out about uni & she is hell to live
with (there are times when I truly wish
she's move out, be anywhere but here!!).
So feeling stresssed about uni is ok.
What you have to do, is try (repeat try)
& keep on top of things by setting up
a study programme & as far as possible
sticking to it, but you must include in
it, some time out, movies, plays, walks,
time with friends etc. Or the tiredness
& stress will eat away at you (excuse
the pun) & you will go backwards &
feel bad.
A couple of years ago I took to both arms
with scissors, something I never thought I
would or could do, but we can all do
things we never think we can, it just
takes the right set of circumstances at
the right (or wrong!) time. I can't say
i'll never do it again, but I promised
myself that I would seek help & I did
(which you need to do) & that I would
remind myself how lousy I felt about it
any time I thought of doing that or
anything else stupid again. So far well I
am alive & so are those around me!!
Go & see a counsellor - is there a
student union/guild or similar there, here
they have counsellors who can help guide
students on any matter, medical, personal,
legal, etc etc - & it's free. So try
that, if not look in the local phone book
for eating disorder support groups
&/or see a dr - not my favourite
people!! But with self-harm & not
eating etc maybe it is necessary.
Please also smile as often as you can -
pull funny faces in the mirror at ourself
- that should help you smile!! Smiling
releases chemicals in our brains to reduce
stress/anxiety/depression.
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bella54
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Feb 2004 Posts: 11 Location: cambridge
Thanx Again! Posted: 03-27-04 20:43pm
Ah I feel better that I was able to tell
someone, I felt so ashamed. I want to
thank you, you are a courage of support to
many people on this forum.
I do go out and socialise all the time, I
am a party girl but always make sure my
studies dont get affected. I am actually
off to london for my friends 20th tonite
and I cant wait- so excited .
I doubt I will ever do such a stupid thing
like that again but like u say never say
never but id like to think id have the
control not to. Yes they do have many
counsellor's available at uni, im actually
involved in what we call "link line" it is
a service for students run by student who
can call up if they want to talk about
something or have a problem. But in all
honesty I will not be going to see a
counsellor, its not me, I could'nt go and
talk to someone face to face about things,
never. I will just deal with it in my own
way. ( I always do!)
ne way gtg in to town and buy my nan some
flowers for her bday today.
Takecare, thanx again. :d
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