Can Panic Attacks Be So Violent, That You Consider Suicide? Posted: 09-24-07 00:03am
I had a very nasty panic attack earlier
today, one far worse than quite possibly
anything I've experienced before, perhaps
matching the 1st one I ever had, and it
made it so bad I was looking around for a
razor and seriously considered committing
suicide.
What happened was I was convinced that
suddenly I was going to die and everything
around me started looking sinister and
evil and I started seeing 666 everywhere
and just evil things popping out of
everywhere , which freaked me the hell
out, then started the rapid heartbeat and
the breathing, and I was 1000% convinced
that my death was imminent, and that the
devil was going to take me straight to
hell and that this current anxiety panic
fear state i was feeling was going to last
for all eternity, and at that moment I was
like holy health question, I'm still
alive, god help me before I die I dont
want to end up like this, yet I was also
reaching for the razors. Realizing that
this was bad, I rushed into my car and
sped off to the ER.
I know it's bad to drive in a state like
this, but I was so desperate at that
point. Knowing also that most likely it
was a horrid panic attack, either that or
a doing it possession by Satan himself,
that's how bad it felt, I took some ativan
to help with the symptoms. Upon arriving
at the ER, and seeing a counselor and much
Ativan later, I calmed down to normal, and
realized that infact it was an extremely
awful anxiety attack, that came out of the
blue.
All I know is, how the HELL can these
things be THIS powerful?
It's awful!!!
I'm glad I beat it this time, but they can
come right out of the blue, and send you
straight to HELL, a mental hell that's so
anguishing, I don't think anything matches
it.
Is this a true bad panic attack, or is
there more going on than I know, perhaps
other mental disorders thrown in there?
It was scary. Scary thoughts , straight
from hell. lol.
It's almost as if, your worst fears and
anxieties, and what not, or your own brain
turns against you at full force, spewing
the most fearful thoughts, and nasty body
symtpoms you can imagine all at once for
an intense 5-10 period, testing your will
to live.
Why are these things so nasty?
Does life stress, or something I did,
contribute to these things?
Or is it a chemical imbalance thing?
Whatever this is, it's extremely
frightening.
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solar5star
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Nov 2007 Posts: 6
Posted: 11-02-07 10:35am
I had a similar experience about one month
ago. I couldnt breathe, I was shaking, my
heart was beating in really unconventional
ways. I felt like I was either dying or
going insane. I've never been a very
religious person, but I found myself on my
knees, head to the ground, crying
uncontrollably, and praying to God to help
me out of this situation. It didnt seem to
help immediately, but it did help to calm
me down and eventually it passed. It's a
very scary feeling, and you're definitely
not alone.
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eOns of gREy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Nov 2007 Posts: 35 Location: , United States
Posted: 11-05-07 22:25pm
solar5star, don't worry that's natural.
Some people can live everyday life not
praying to God, but when scared or in
trouble they confide in him. Like
me(though I try praying every night).
To the topic poster, that's creepy. I'm
glad you got to the E.R. I have had 2 real
panic attacks in my life, but I didn't
hallucinate or anything. I'm really really
glad you're OK.