Please can somebody help me! I think i'm going a bit crazy, this feeling just come over me one day, out of the blue, for no apparent reason- and the frustrating thing is that I can't quite explain the feeling, it's like i'm scared of something and I don't know what, like i'm at war with my mind! I have a relatively good life, best family ever, good friends etc, but I just don't feel like myself anymore, like an empty shell, when I see old pictures, I feel sad as i'm not like that anymore, nothing that used to interest me, does anymore, like travelling! Also get bit of anxiety, had a panic attack last summer, which scared the life out of me while travelling, then when I returned a few months later is when this all happened, when I was alone in my room! It's lasted on and off for almost a year now, but lately it's worse than ever! I worry i'll never be able to get back to how I was before, i'm actually forgetting how I used to feel! Not sure if this is even depression, i'm trying to diagnose myself everyday, by researching and reading these boards! I honestly don't know whats going on and it's killing me. I used to be really outgoing and happy, now i've lost all lust for life! But the feeling is really horrible, it's not so bad when i'm occupied, but when i'm alone is when I get these 'dark thoughts' about nothing! Sometimes I feel so frustrated I just wanna scream orc something! I can't shake this disease! All the stories i've heard/read dont match mine, don't know anybosy who is scared/confused abot something that isn't there! Scared to live, scared to die... I feel doomed! HELP!