ever since I first started 7th grade my bowel movements have been weird. i never went to the doctor or anything cuz i figured it was just the way i was eating (probably pretty crappy at the time if i remember correctly). i was chubby, but not like FAT fat.

now i've just started my junior year in high school, and my bowel movements are still weird. it's getting annoying.

it's like, almost every time i go pee i feel like i have to "get rid of waste" if you know what i mean.

and sometimes i can't seem to get rid of all the waste, like it just won't all come out.

so like, i'll go before i leave to go to church or something.
then a lotta times, before the end of the night i'll have to crap again!

i know you're gonna tell me to go to the doctor and get it checked out, but i'm 16 and it'd be awkward to tell my mom.

i'll probably tell her soon, cuz what if it's cancer or something?!

but i just want your opinions first.

is there any tests i can do?! like not eat for a couple days and try to clean out my system and see what happens?!

sometimes my poop is big, and other times it's kinda small. when it's small it's like there are a few pieces of it. but it's never REALLY tiny. cuz i heard somewhere that 'pencil-like' stools are a sign of colon cancer or something like that.

but they're never that small.


what could it be?! maybe a food allergy or something?!

i think it could be because some days i go more than others.


here's what i remember though:
the night before this started happening to me, i remember i was watching a tv show, and had to go poop but didn't want to miss the tv show (an hbo show with no commercials) so i remember holding it for a while. it was an hour long tv show. so i don't know if i holded it for an hour, or what?? it was too long ago for me to remember...

but then the day after i did that i started having weird bowel issues.


what could be wrong?!