a year
thats the thing, were used to being together all the time and when he moved away this is the longest we;ve been apart

wow

im sorry

relationships can suck sometimes
its good though that it happened now and not while you were already married

i dont even know if were getting back together or not, im writing him a very long email as i type this

well let me know how it goes

haha i sent him a poem too


i hope by him sleeping on it he;ll change his mind, he has before

he said he over reacted... its back on haha


my life is nothing but drama.

he needs to stop overreacting
because in the long run you guys will jut end up on and off and on and off
thats not a healthy stable relationship

we've broke up like 8 times.
this is the longest time tho.. normally its like 20 minutes.

its cause were not used to being apart.
we pretty much lived together after 3 weeks of dating haha

and now he went drinking with some friends hah

thats not good.

yah but its only lasts like 20 minutes at a time.
were so much alike and were both really stubborn and yah i dont know. lol
we've made it to a year so i dont know

maybe he is scared---i know that i am --im scared of a lot of things. like with this guy that wont get his butt up here--i keep asking myself--what is wrong with me that he doesnt want to see me?( i know its him not me) or if he sees me as just a huge medical bill and doesnt wanna take care of me(i have tmd and its a little costly) and then i cant get the guys here to talk to me. Ive been on one date my whole life.

diane

that guy doesnt know what hes missing out on!!! and whats tmd?

Its temporomandibular disorder(some miscall it tmj--temporomandibular joint--everyone has 2 of those) the jaw locks and pops and hurts like hell. it can refer pain to other parts of the body too.

Ill agree jared is missing out. it really kinda hurts the way he is acting. I wouldnt do that to a girl if i was a guy.

he is scared.
hes admitted it to me.

right now hes living at his boss' house and theyre letting me go visit there for a week at a time.
that was mainly his problem.. thought i was going to cheat and everything

i kept telling him i wasnt, i even deleted every guy on my facebook, msn and i deleted my entire myspace to prove how much i lovee him.

his boss isnt letting him spend any of his paychecks, just his tip money (he works for a moving company)
he pays them 300 for rent, they pay for his meals and theyll pay for him to come see me whenever he wants to

theyre buying him a webcam and mic for theyre computer.
they know how much he loves me and how much i love him.

theyre helping us out alot and they dont even know me yet.. i get to go see him in 2 weeks

ohh ok i know what tmj is

this jared guy...have you told him how you feel? does he know that hes upsetting you?

i dont understand guys sometimes...all of them are wierd

thats good im glad.

me too. i was going to buy his boss and his wife a present for letting me stay.. but since i dont work right now im going to bake them cookies

haha im soo lame

i did--on his birthday--- i havent heard from him.

(sorry i didnt mean to make this post about me.)

its quite alright, i like hearing about people and their lives.
cause i really dont know that many people.. so it makes me feel like ..i dont know the word

anyways i really dont mind lol

thanks--its nice to vent:)