Hey Dudovic,
Congrats on quitting. The anger you may have been experiencing probably came from what is known as emotional loss. I was taught that people quitting expereince the 5 stages of emotional loss when quitting much like someone who loses someone or is dying.
There is denial, anger, bargaining, depression and finally acceptance.
Also, you're experiencing anger as a non smoker and it can be frustrating at first. I'm by no means condoning your anger, but it might help explain why.
When you smoked and felt anger or stress. This caused a physiological reaction that pulled nicotine out of the bloodstream. This quickly put you into withdrawal. So a lot of times something that was annoying us would be put on hold while we smoked to replenish our lost nicotine. Usually what happened is by the time we were finishedd smoking and "feeling better". What was making us upset in the first place doesn't seem so bad. We kind of forget about it.
You mentioned this anger episode happened on day 3. You were already going through withdrawal. As a matter of fact, day 3 is usually whne withdrawal peaks and then starts to decline. Then something annoyed you, probably creating a bit more anxiety, BUT this time you knew that you couldn't put a stop to that feeling by the only way you know how. By smoking a cigarette. This probably caused you a lot of frustration and made you very angry over something that would normally not seem like a big deal.
Not only was it psychologically upsetting, but you were also feeling physical anxiety on top of that due to withdrawaling off nicotine.
I'm asuming that today, you are on day 11 or 12. You should be feeling much better than you were on day 3. All physical withdrawal should cease arounf this time.
Personally, I am a much much more calmer person now that I don't smoke. Smoking does not relieve stress. It creates it.
I strongly reccomend that you do not listen to your cousin. Putting nicotine back into your body will only compound the issue of quitting and put the physcial part of quitting back into the scene. This is going backwards.
The gum only alleviates craves that it causes. It would only take the edge off, because it initally created that edginess feeling. It is a chicken and the egg scenario.
You are goin to be experiencing a lot of things now as a non smoker and you'll experience association triggers. DO NOT CONFUSE THIS WITH A NEED FOR NICOTINE. Assocation triggers are merely urges to smoke, because you're subconscious has been conditioned to smoke during certain places events and scenarios.
Example: Hanging out with smoking friends. Drinking coffee. Break time at work, etc.
A lot of people confuse association triggers with needing a cigarette. It is merely a thought that your subconscious will disregard within one or two encounters.
Good luck,
Eric