When I was about 15-16 years of age, I did heavy drugs, went on some fair rides tripping and when I was done the next day I felt weird seemed like a minor case of depression. So a year or so goes on, and my days weren't too bad until I took some codine and asprin (not for OD'ing or getting high, just normal uses.) I went to sleep and woke up, felt dizzy and collapsed... The next day I woke up with Panic Attack/Depression and Anxiety symptoms. I figured I messed myself up from the pills but the doctor said I was healthy.

So I'm 18 now and I still have sever panic attacks etc. I can't breathe, when I lay down at night, I can hear my heart beating incredibly hard I feel like I'm going to die, I shake etc. This is usually more severe when im alone or trying to sleep at night.

This might sound mello-dramatic but it gets worse... Shortly after I turned 16 the moods and anxiety was driving me nuts, I was alone life was tense. I started getting suicidal thoughts but I was scared of death, then I realized how stupid I was. I started thinking about religion, heaven, death all the time... almost to the point of driving me schitzofrentically crazy.

I'm starting to become releived but me being scared of deatha nd with my symptom I think I'm going insane.