this is a little long but its crazy. me and my girlfriend have been dating of sept 23 06 so weâre almost a year. Everybody has their ups and downs nothing is perfect.
So, I have problems with my family, and I tried reaching out to my girlfriend for support. It caused a lot of anger in me and confusion. At some points I would tell her I was confused about us, when really I was just repressing my feelings from my family situation onto my relationship, which was giving me mixed feelings.
A while back in august a little issue happened with her family where I got really angry and flipped out on them. I didnât want to come back to the house after that because I thought they would hate me. So I tried pretending I was okay when I wasnât.
I could tell it really bugged her but she said she understood and she let me take my time coming back to the house. So everything was going fine she would text me every morning when she woke up.
Eg.) âaw your such a sweet heart Iâm so in love with my amazing man whos gonna take care of me forever, and Iâm going to back him up till the very endâ aug 20th
She left me a really sweet comment on a site, and it said Iâm so happy youre not afraid of the big picture and how I make her who she is on September 5th.
That same day she had me write out our 1 year anniversary in her new agenda book.
September 6th I apologized to her family for what happened earlier. But I still felt like they didnât like me so I told her that I was so unsure of what I wanted. And she pretty much told me not to rethink us because there was nothing wrong with us. But obviously I still knew I wanted to be with her. Sept 7 I was really tired from university and wanted to go to sleep so I told her we can just talk on the computer. But she insisted and pretty much dragged me out of the house to come be with her. Sept 8, she cooked for me we watched a movie everything was great, she was on her monthly time so we didnât go all the way but she wanted to on the next day. She was planning out our Halloween costumes. Sept9 I had a date planned for her, since family has been confusing to me and I have been a wreck I was so excited. But she had to cancel on me because her grandma was going to take her shopping. I got mad because I was offended cause she could have went another time. And she was the one telling me she misses how I do sweet things for her. I got mad and I left my cell phone, and while I was gone she was telling me how she didnât want to break up and that I should stop ignoring her cause she thought I was. And then I got into a huge fight with my dad, and said some things I didnât mean to her, and then she didnât want me back at all. That night she told me she was confused and that she didnât know what she wanted, I asked her if she still felt everything for me, and she said yes. I asked her what the promise ring meant to her and she said a lot. I tried to take it off her but she wouldnât let me. I asked her if she wanted to go back to her ex, she didnât know. She pretty much didnât know anything that night. I asked her if she still wanted to iron my shirts(inside joke) and she nodded her head and was crying. I asked her if we could go on a break instead she said yeah because she doesnât want to lose me.
So the next day the 10th she broke up with me, and I tried to get her back but she told me shes done with it. Yet she was still wearing my ring. The next day she told me she was dead serious and yet she was still wearing my ring. She told me our 1 year means nothing to her. And that shes moving on. When I asked her if she loves me now she says I donât know, and if she ever did love me she says I donât know. She was always talking about the future she couldnât even leave me alone for a day. She has never experienced a long relationship before, and she thinks that love stays the same forever but it evolves into a person who is your bestfriend who you would do anything for, and she told me it was like that but not anymore. She told me she was confused and that she needs time. But yet she said she was over me yet she canât give me an answer if we will be together or not. I am so confused she is sending me mixed signals from before the breakup till now. She says she is completely over me..in less than 4 days of breaking up. What the hell is going on here? is she running scared? she is acting so immature she doesnt even want to talk. do you think she will regret?
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