No, you are never a lost cause...........I am here and I care. Yes hte hell I care...It makes me sick what depresion can do. You need some professional help and until you get this, this will continue until you do damage that can not be reversed. There are people in this world who care. As for wanting to hurt yourself, this was somehting I could not understand, becasue I always wanted to hurt the SOB's that hurt me....My parenst divorced when I was 6, my Mother raised me and my two brothers alone..............lots of hardships. Then was uprooted to move in wiht my father and his BRIDEZILLA from hell.........bad childhood. I want you to look in a mirror nad tell yourself how special you are..........stop feeling sorry for you and take control oof YOUR LIFE. Do not allow yourself to harm yourself anymore. Its more of a control thing.........find a doctor or therapist you can talk to.....I am always here if you want to PM me!

I kinda know what you are talking abot. But i can't say that i've ben in your shoes. I wont go into details or anything but i was in a relationship that legal i wasn't suppose to be in and some 'others' found out and he was sent away. I was devistated! But needless to say i wanted to do something like you have already done but i didn't have to guts to so i actually took a needle and carved a heart on the inside of my leg right above my ankle. I'm now happily in a relationship with someone that is way better for me and everytime i see the scare it brings me back. So, as i'm sure you already know, the sooner you stop the better its going to be. You'r going to have less scares to remind you of your past once you get through this. If you don't mind me asking:

Do you have a girlfriend?
A best friend/anyone to run to?
This isn't going to turn into suicide right? It more like a 'im angry, lets let some pain out' kinda thing?

And i know what its like to go through a divorce with parents. My parents just went through one this past year and i'm 19 now. So if you would like to Private Messag me PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO!! I know divorce's can be so hard to go through. And just to make it worse i have to meet my mom's new 'boyfriend' tonight at 6pm and its 4pm now It's going to be very weird!

But please hang in there and let me know if there is anything that i can do to help you out!

We care about you very much.

- Have you tried methods of "hurting" yourself without causing harm? (Like ice cubes)?

honey, the world may seem like it's full of wackos who just want to hurt you, but it's twice as full of people who care, who want to help others. People aren't half bad- hell, they're not a quarter bad. I think maybe you know that at least a little bit- otherwise you wouldn't have asked complete strangers for help.

Firstly, you are not alone. i know exactly what you're going through, having started at the same age and having felt the same way you described. I started when i was 12 and i haven't done it again since i was 15. (i'm 17 now.)

Secondly, if i can stop anyone can.

you're not broken, nobody needs to fix you. you just need to realize your infinite potential and enormous worth. you're a beautiful individual and you DO NOT deserve to be hurt, by anyone in the world INCLUDING and especially yourself. please message me any time i feel like it- you can't freak me out and i won't think less of you no matter what. so vent, chat, rant, ask, whatever. just know that there are people in the world who want to help and honey I'm one of 'em!