Well I found a few nudey piks again on my boyfriends phone. I couldn't see the girls face but there was a message on it saying "are these the pics you wanted? Please don't share them wit anyone. I trust you"

Again my heart sank. I don't know who the girl is but after I saw them I didn't feel as devistated as I did the first time. I just felt like their nudey pics of some chik it would be the same as him looking at porn anywere else....rite?

But I don't know why I didn't feel so mad. He tells me he loves me so much and he shows it. He's such an amazing man to me. So I guess I jus don't feel threatened by the pictures cause that's all they are...pictures. And I don't feel therated cause I have him and she doesn't. Is my brain and emotions jus desensitized?

Oh another thing that ties everything together. There was a bday party at the bar we go to. And he didn't invite me. We always go to bday parties together. And when he came back I wanted to have sex wit him, I'm being all romantic and sexy and when I tried kissing him he jus turned away. That's soo odd to me. Oh yea the pics were dated for today. So I don't kno if they conside with each other...I'm so emo rite now any advice would really put me at ease.