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Q: Will our relationship work? Getting the Thorn Out of My Side
asked by: Tinman on September 10th, 2007
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Here's my story. I have been with the same girl for 5 years now. We had some problems earlier this year and split up for about 5 weeks. We got back together and everything was going fine.

About a month and a half ago we got into a fight...we were both drunk. To make a long story short she dug up the worst thing she could say to hurt me. Her exact words were "I was doing it another guy when we were broke up!". I was mad and said we were over. After that I felt like a hypocrite because.....I was sleeping with another woman while we were split up too. the one difference is that I would never throw that in her face to hurt her.

The week after I had made my mind up that I was leaving. We dont live together but I have alot of stuff at her house. When I started moving my stuff out she was a total mess. Crying all the time. Wouldnt get out of bed. Taking pills. Said she couldnt live without me. She told me that he meant nothing and it was just 2 friends hooking up. I dont know who he is. She said I would never meet him and that he knew we were back together.

She actually met the girl I was sleeping with and had a few confrontations that didnt go too well. I have tried and tried to get over it but I think about her sleeping with this other guy constantly. We are back together now but it is causing alot of problems cause its still a huge thorn in my side. I havent been able to have a solid relationship since. I told her things are never going to be the same.....and it hasnt been.

I really love her and want it to work but I feel like were never going to have a healthy relationship knowing what we know. I cant seem to get it out of my head and it hurts every single day. Should I forgive her and try to move on.....or is it just not going to work? How tdo I get rid of that thorn in my side? am I being a hypocrite? Can we make this work?
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Rosie H
replied on September 10th, 2007
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well thats tough, how do you change the way you feel?

Well you need to accept it. You need to ask yourself why its ok for you to sleep with some else and its not ok for her. Is it about control? You obviously dont have a problem with the fact that you hooked up with some one, does she have a problem? Is she ok with it, if she is then you need to give her the same treatment.


Acceptance is the key to this, you have to let it go. IF you pray, then pray that you can forgive her and yourself. Pray for 2 weeks straight, it works if you really want it to work,.
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Tinman
replied on September 10th, 2007
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I don't think it is the fact that she hooked up with someone...I made it clear to her that I don't think i'm better than her in any way. I think it was the fact that she used it to hurt me. The worst thing she ever couldve said to me right then.

You know the saying ....if you dont want to hear the answer....don't ask the question. Thats how we were when we got back together. I would be naive to think that she wouldnt be in other relationships when we split. But that is something I wasnt going to talk about cause I knew it would cause problems and we were trying to fix things. And who wants to hear that their love for 5 years was with someone else....for both of us.

I do want to be with her..thats why I want to get the thorn out of my side. I have to start beating myself to death and move on.....Ive been angry for too long. She has forgiven me....I need to quit being selfish and do the same.
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Rosie H
replied on September 10th, 2007
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yes forgiveness is the key. Just dont give up yet. It sounds like you really love her. The pain never goes away at once but love will get you through....
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