Joined: 10 Sep 2007 Posts: 1 Location: my own personel hell
Bipolar Disorder: I Feel Like I Don't Belong Anywhere. Posted: 09-10-07 11:41am
I have a sad tale to tell. It all started
febuary of this year when I was
institutionalized for a second time.
Before I knew it my so-called friends
started bailing out on me. One of them
claimed I was stalking her. How in the
heck do yo stalk someone you only see
forty-five minutes a day at school in
front of dozens of people in plain sight?
Another ex-friend just stopped talking to
me alltogether, and my girlfriend broke up
with me, but I was totally overjoyed that
we stayed friends. Then one day in May I
called one of my so-called friends because
I was depressed because my fool
psychiatrist switched my meds up. So I
call her and leve a message saying hey,
I'm a bit bummed out and just need
somebody to talk to, but it's nothing
urgent. A week latyer she calls the police
saying I'm suicidal. So I end up
institutionalized a third time. Then when
I get out my ex girlfriend tells me to
never call her again, one of my friends
cuts me out, and the crazy friend who said
I was suicidal told her father I was
stalking her even though I haven't even
been in the same city for over three
months and I only called her for the first
time in that three months just this past
saturday. I only have one friend in the
world and live in a group home. Why should
I even continue getting up in the morning.
I need hope and guidance. Help me.
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Jake3463
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Aug 2007 Posts: 28 Location: Allentown
Hang In There Posted: 09-11-07 07:07am
I was just diagnosed last September and
I've had a good deal of friends bail on
me. Its just one of those things people
don't understand Mental Illness. If you
had a physical illness its easier to
understand. It sucks but its the
ignorance we face. Some people will think
we are freaks for having this when it
isn't our fault...the worst are the
religious types...I've had a few number of
my religous friends pray that this would
go away and get frustated when it doesn't
or blame this on me for not being close
enough to God...if I had MS or Cancer
would they talk that way? Try looking up a
support group. It may be helpful to talk
to others who have the same problems or
just post to here for support. Try to
remember some people will understand and
others will not. You can't force people
to understand if they don't want to. I'm
lucky that I have an ex-girlfriend from
high school with the same problem who was
diagnosed earlier who is helping me
navigate through this. Hopefully you can
find someone who has already been there to
help you navigate.
