I Always Fall Asleep And Wake Up Feeling Sad Posted: 09-10-07 01:04am
I never smile anymore, I never laugh
anymore. I.m 27 years old and I can't wait
to meet death. I guess I've been depressed
for many many years, I don't really have
any friends and I'm thinking about killing
myself all the time, I've never been happy
as long as I can remember. The first time
I thought about suicide I guess I was 12
years old. I've only had one girlfriend
and that only lasted 2 months. I'm not an
ungly person actually I quite handsome
according to people I just can't seem to
communicate with people around me and all
I feel when I try to go out is even more
lonely. I feel despair, hopelessness and
loneliness. Nothing makes sense, I cry out
to God for help, but there is no help
given to me. God doesn't like me I guess.
I know that one day I will kill myself
because I just can't take this anymore.
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Enlightened Uselessness
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Posted: 09-10-07 01:10am
Go to a therapist or psychologist and
he'll/she'll help you with your social
skills. Then, hit the club!
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marvel
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Posted: 09-10-07 14:03pm
Waking up and asking "why?" or having that
feeling of misery was always my least
favourite part of the day.
For me, it was a surefire sign that
something inside of me was not okay (after
struggling with it for years). I went to
talk to a counsellor one day at my school,
and he recommended a few things to me...
just little changes in my diet, the way I
organize my life.. that actually helped
quite considerably. Do you have access to
a counsellor or doctor or therapist? It
may benefit you quite a bit!
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MisterK
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Joined: 10 Sep 2007 Posts: 2
Posted: 09-10-07 14:30pm
marvel
wrote:
Waking up and asking "why?"
or having that feeling of misery was
always my least favourite part of the day.
For me, it was a surefire sign that
something inside of me was not okay (after
struggling with it for years). I went to
talk to a counsellor one day at my school,
and he recommended a few things to me...
just little changes in my diet, the way I
organize my life.. that actually helped
quite considerably. Do you have access to
a counsellor or doctor or therapist? It
may benefit you quite a
bit!
Yeah I hate waking up in the morning, I
always just wish I could sleep forever and
never have to worry about a thing. Doctors
you say? Yeah I guess I have access to
that, and I have thought about it, but I'm
afraid people will think less of me or
treat me differently if I did.
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marvel
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Posted: 09-10-07 14:40pm
Doctors are there to help. The same goes
for Therapists or Counsellors. They will
commend you for seeking help... they
understand how hard it is to muster up the
courage to get help!
There are times still when I struggle with
what people will think. I have more of an
issue telling people I have depression
than I do telling them that I'm gay.
There's such a bad stigma surrounding
depression... it adds to the frustration
of the disorder itself, I find. We have to
learn that it's common... and, most
importantly that thoughts are just
thoughts: Those who think of us as 'less'
because of our depression are wrong!
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Oicangi
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Joined: 09 Sep 2007 Posts: 18 Location: Private
Posted: 09-10-07 20:22pm
Dude, yous handsome, yous intelligent,
yous young, and you are depressed? I am
very sorry, but I don't catch the deal
here...
Now, if you just think:
"Ok, I am going to stop having pity of
myself and do something about it instead
of complaining, I'll say hello to that
sexy lady who sells cupcakes at work, or
I'll talk about yesterday's game to this
guy that I've heard he likes, or even help
that neighbor with his bags, for which
probably he'll invite me a cup of coffee"
My point is, YOU HAVE A SOLUTION. I mean,
why are you depressed, if you won't even
try to fix it, which in your case, is more
than easy, you make your path, you, by
yourself, no doctors, no psychiatrist, YOU
can alter this situation, this feeling.
I have acne, and most of the time I feel
like you, dude, this is way worst and I
tell myself every day I wake up, "It's
worth it"... So I let my personality be,
and you know what? People freaking likes
me. So, you are perfectly NORMAL, and you
can change this easily, just... stop being
a closed book.
~~~ In life, new friendships and love
comes with the creation of opportunities,
opportunities that you simply make in
purpose or accidentally ~~~
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Staocheb
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Joined: 11 Sep 2007 Posts: 7
Re: I Always Fall Asleep And Wake Up Feeling Sad Posted: 09-11-07 05:51am
You feel sad because you don't have plans.
Think about what you can do in that life.
You don't need ppl, you need occupation.
Think about it. Labor is a good therapist.
Just bend every effort to something and
don't think about yourself. It's bad to be
depressed. There is nothing interesting
and valuable.
