I am now 21 and suffered from depression from the ages of around 13/14 till i was around 17/18 and often felt suicidal. And people telling you, dont do it, think what you'll miss out on, or, some people dont get a choice and you do etc doesnt really help much. I know they are relevant facts but it still doesnt mean a lot to someone suffering from depression. I think a lot of people mistake depression as someone who just feels a bit miserable but its not just someone who feels down in the dumps, its an actual illness, and u can still laugh and have a good time when ur out with mates and suffer from depression at the same time
Its really hard to explain but theres nothing that people can say to make u just "snap out of it" as it were as it goes a lot deeper than that. I found it often helped chatting to someone going thru the same thing or who had been going thru it in the past coz they were much more able to relate to you and vice versa. For instance, my sister often suffered from anxiety, which although not strictly the same is said to be similar, and i could totally relate and open up to her when i was going thru this stage, yet my others sister or my mum, who had never experienced it b4, although they meant well, were not much comfort at all as u could notice their lack of understanding of it. I think its hard for people to understand unless they have been there aswell.
I think its a good idea to see a councellor. It may help, and to just not take too much to heart with other people and go out with friends, make entertainment for yourself etc but definately see a councellor just for a chat of anything.
Depression is one of those things that seems will never ever go away b ut it can, i thought i would be stuck with it for ages, but it lasted four years and now its been 3 nearly 4 years since ive not had it and its never even threatened coming back. If anything it makes me feel stronger mentally, and it feels less likely i would get it than it did before