This is a hard thing to put to words. I used to be a cutter, but have moved on to less obvious ways of,,,,,well hurting myself. I know the reasons, but I don't know why. Ok, that won't make sense to most people. Anyway, I don't really want to discuss the whys and the hows in this post.
Without getting into real specific detail, I hurt my foot. Mostly the top and inside edge. It's all blunt force damage. Most of this has been done over the last several months, with several days and even week or more of healing. Before I would start doing it again.
I think I may have really done some damage this time.
I don't think it's broken, because I walk with no limp, and walking does not actually hurt. But in has started to just be painful without me causing it.
I'm sorry if I sound rude, but I know the first post I am going to see, will say to go to a doctor. But that is mostly impossible.
I have no health insurance, plus I already owe 1600.00 in medical bills, and there is no way to explain this without being truthful. And there is no way to explain multiple injures to one place.
("Gee I don't know Doc, I must have dropped a bowing ball on my foot a couple of hundred times.") Besides, he would probably make me take a few days off of work, or definitely put me on light duty. I'm on my feet all day, that is a job killer there. I can't risk that.
I am mostly worried about infection, now that I know you can get infections without breaking the skin.
It is visibly swollen, but not real bad, I can still put shoes on and what not.
I guess my question is how to know if it's infected?? Are there any over the counter ways of maybe, fighting, or helping to guard against infection?? Remember this is an internal injury, so all the ointment in the world won't help me. I am going to make a real effort at letting it heal and not doing this anymore.
If anything, can someone point me to a website where I can find out this information??
I can describe with more detail if it would help, just don't want to waste anyones time if this is the wrong place to discuss this.
Thanks for any help.