I Have An Injury Question Posted: 09-06-07 01:22am
This is a hard thing to put to words. I
used to be a cutter, but have moved on to
less obvious ways of,,,,,well hurting
myself. I know the reasons, but I don't
know why. Ok, that won't make sense to
most people. Anyway, I don't really want
to discuss the whys and the hows in this
post.
Without getting into real specific detail,
I hurt my foot. Mostly the top and inside
edge. It's all blunt force damage. Most
of this has been done over the last
several months, with several days and even
week or more of healing. Before I would
start doing it again.
I think I may have really done some damage
this time.
I don't think it's broken, because I walk
with no limp, and walking does not
actually hurt. But in has started to just
be painful without me causing it.
I'm sorry if I sound rude, but I know the
first post I am going to see, will say to
go to a doctor. But that is mostly
impossible.
I have no health insurance, plus I already
owe 1600.00 in medical bills, and there is
no way to explain this without being
truthful. And there is no way to explain
multiple injures to one place.
("Gee I don't know Doc, I must have
dropped a bowing ball on my foot a couple
of hundred times.") Besides, he would
probably make me take a few days off of
work, or definitely put me on light duty.
I'm on my feet all day, that is a job
killer there. I can't risk that.
I am mostly worried about infection, now
that I know you can get infections without
breaking the skin.
It is visibly swollen, but not real bad,
I can still put shoes on and what not.
I guess my question is how to know if it's
infected?? Are there any over the counter
ways of maybe, fighting, or helping to
guard against infection?? Remember this
is an internal injury, so all the ointment
in the world won't help me. I am going to
make a real effort at letting it heal and
not doing this anymore.
If anything, can someone point me to a
website where I can find out this
information??
I can describe with more detail if it
would help, just don't want to waste
anyones time if this is the wrong place to
discuss this.
Thanks for any help.
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rosejackson
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Posted: 09-06-07 02:35am
ok first of all, is there any pharmacy's
over there than a pharmacist can have a
look at it for free? i know they're not
doctors but iwll know some knowledge and
they can recommend on what to do.
secondly, i really think that it would be
helpful if you speak to someone about the
self harming. although it is not an
obvious way of self harming, it stil is.
talking always helps half the problem.
remember a problem shared is always a
problem halfed. even if you cant talk to a
councellor because of the health
insurance, talk to someone close to you
about your problems, or get health
insurance if possible ?
i hope this helps, please pm me if you
have any questions about Selfy injury x
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kicker
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Sep 2007 Posts: 3 Location: A place
Posted: 09-06-07 20:19pm
Thanks for the advise, I will look into
that. It is much better today. I have
been doing things like this for years. I
have learned that if I talk about it to a
trusted friend, they will slowly start not
being trusted. I have lost many a friends
after attempting to discuss this. Most
people tell me they must not have been
true friends, I figure they realized I was
crazy and don't want that in their lives.
LOL!! I can understand that.
Thanks again for the input.
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rosejackson
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Posted: 09-07-07 03:13am
they probably dont want to hear the
information themselves and is probably too
much for them to handle. when i cut i
couldnt tell anyone but a friend who also
cut.
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kicker
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Sep 2007 Posts: 3 Location: A place
Posted: 09-13-07 19:59pm
I've done it again!! what is wrong with
me???? Are emotions this hard to control
for everyone?? It seems I have to hit it
harder and harder to get whatever the hell
effect I need. I think I did break it
this time. Or at least fractured it. I
am so f-ing stupid!!!
Don't be so hard on yourself. Emotions can
get the best of you sometimes, it happens
to all of us. To control them you should
try different things. Take deep breaths,
if you want to expell energy, do some
exercise (jumping jacks or pushups,
whatever). Hell just punch the air or a
pillow. But most of all try to take care
of your body. I hope this doesn't sound
hypocritical, but if you're seriously
injuring your body then you need to find
another way to vent your feelings. I
personally think the best thing you can do
is find someone to talk to about it. And
take care of the foot.
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rnmed
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Joined: 17 Sep 2007 Posts: 1 Location: ,
Posted: 09-17-07 02:02am
Self-injury may be an indicator of
depression and/or other psychological
problems. Therapy and skills training can
be very useful for those who self-injure.
The therapy module used will vary
depending on the person's diagnosis and
their individual needs.
DBT, or Dialectical behavioral therapy can
be very successful for those with a
personality disorder, and could
potentially be used for those with other
mental illnesses who exhibit
self-injurious behavior. Cognitive
Behavioral Therapy is generally used to
assist those with axis 1 diagnoses, such
as depression, schizophrenia, and bipolar
disorder. Diagnosis and treatment of the
causes is thought by many to be the best
approach to self-injury; but in some
cases, particularly in clients with a
personality disorder, this is not very
effective, which is why more clinicians
are starting to take a DBT approach in
order to reduce the behavior itself. A
person who is injuring themselves may be
advised to use coping skills, such as
journaling or taking a walk, when they
have the urge to harm themselves. They may
also be told to avoid having the objects
they use to harm themselves within easy
reach. People who rely on habitual
self-injury are sometimes psychiatrically
hospitalised, based on their stability,
and their ability and especially their
willingness to get help.[35]
In individuals with developmental
disabilities, occurrence of self-injury is
often demonstrated to be related to its
effects on the environment, such as
obtaining attention or desired materials
or escaping demands. As developementally
disabled individuals often have
communication or social deficits,
self-injury may be their way of obtaining
these things which they are otherwise
unable to obtain in a socially appropriate
way (such as by asking). One approach for
treating self-injury thus is to teach an
alternative, appropriate response which
obtains the same result as the
self-injury.
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keys101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Sep 2007 Posts: 87 Location: , USA
Posted: 09-22-07 01:28am
"what is wrong with me?" kicker, there's
nothing wrong with you sweetheart.
emotions are tricky little no namers, and
some people like you and me need a
physical outlet that is blatant and
uncomplicated to release all that
emotional mumbo jumbo that we can't make
sense of in our heads. it gives us a
feeling of control, like no matter how
effed up something is we can always
release that emotional pain in the same
way. trouble is, not only does that cause
physical problems but it creates more of
those pesky emotions: now you have to
throw self doubt, confusion and guilt into
the mix- and that's just for starters. I
was a cutter from age 12. I am now 17 and
haven't done it for 2 years. lemme tell
you, that feeling of relief in knowing
that i overcame that is far more amazing
than any gash or bash ever was.
remember this- you are a beautiful human
being. your life is precious and so is
your body. there are other ways to feel
better, trust me. i won't tell you what to
do because everyone's different, but I
will tell you that what worked for me was
the realization that i deserve better than
that, damn it! if somebody else was
hurting you like that they could be hauled
off to jail. you don't deserve that
treatment from an outside source and so
clearly you don't deserve it from
yourself. just remember that you deserve
much, much much better than you're giving
yourself.
and hey, everyone slips up here and there.
just keep moving forward. you can slow
down, but never stop.
let me know if i can help you with
ANYTHING at all, hey?
later.
